Bipolar Disorder Support Group
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I GOT A JOB!!!!!!!!! It is the strangest thing. A few days ago, I resubmitted my resume to a company that I had interviewed with back in September. I thought "it can't hurt". So, I get a call from the manager this morning. I went in for an interview. She said that they were expanding and adding four people. She didn't want to put out another ad, so she went through past applicants, and when I resubmitted my resume, she called me right away. How cool is that? I'm not exactly sure when I am going to start, but she said it would be soon. They have to get the new desks, etc set up.
Now comes the tricky part......not DOUBTING every move that I make, believing in myself. I prayed for something to come through for me, and God answered my prayers! Now I pray for peace and the ability to let the past go, move forward and do the best that I can!! One day at a time.
During the last few weeks, I have had to consider what my next steps would be...
Move down to the State my dad lives in and stay with him until I found a job and a place....I came up with NO WAY. My dad made me feel like SH** for asking to help me with one MONTH of rent....I can't see myself STAYING with him. He would humiliate me and make me feel like a bigger loser
Move to the State where my sister lives.....again, NO WAY....she was AWFUL to me when I lived with her. She let her friend rip my Xanax off and threatened to throw me out in the middle of the night with nowhere to go in a huge city where I didn't know anyone.
The last three scenarios:
Move back to the town that I was raised in. I strongly considered it, but the town I am from has turned into a very unsafe place. My good friend offered me a place to stay until I found a job and a place.
Move to a totally new place. However, I am not adventurous and would be afraid to move to a place where things were foreign to me and I didn't know anyone.
Stay where I am and find a job. I am familiar with the town (I have lived here for almost 15 years) and have made a lot of friends. Plus I have cousins here. So, for now, I stay here. Everything happens for a reason.
My goals are as follows:
*HEAL MY SELF ESTEEM
*Purge all the material "things" from my apartment that I don't need. I have a small apartment. It gets cluttered fast.
*HEAL MY SELF ESTEEM EVEN MORE*
I am afraid to tell many people about my GREAT news, because I am afraid that people will see me fail....AGAIN. there again, I need to *HEAL MY SELF ESTEEM***
Thank you for reading my book!!
Now comes the tricky part......not DOUBTING every move that I make, believing in myself. I prayed for something to come through for me, and God answered my prayers! Now I pray for peace and the ability to let the past go, move forward and do the best that I can!! One day at a time.
During the last few weeks, I have had to consider what my next steps would be...
Move down to the State my dad lives in and stay with him until I found a job and a place....I came up with NO WAY. My dad made me feel like SH** for asking to help me with one MONTH of rent....I can't see myself STAYING with him. He would humiliate me and make me feel like a bigger loser
Move to the State where my sister lives.....again, NO WAY....she was AWFUL to me when I lived with her. She let her friend rip my Xanax off and threatened to throw me out in the middle of the night with nowhere to go in a huge city where I didn't know anyone.
The last three scenarios:
Move back to the town that I was raised in. I strongly considered it, but the town I am from has turned into a very unsafe place. My good friend offered me a place to stay until I found a job and a place.
Move to a totally new place. However, I am not adventurous and would be afraid to move to a place where things were foreign to me and I didn't know anyone.
Stay where I am and find a job. I am familiar with the town (I have lived here for almost 15 years) and have made a lot of friends. Plus I have cousins here. So, for now, I stay here. Everything happens for a reason.
My goals are as follows:
*HEAL MY SELF ESTEEM
*Purge all the material "things" from my apartment that I don't need. I have a small apartment. It gets cluttered fast.
*HEAL MY SELF ESTEEM EVEN MORE*
I am afraid to tell many people about my GREAT news, because I am afraid that people will see me fail....AGAIN. there again, I need to *HEAL MY SELF ESTEEM***
Thank you for reading my book!!
From a self-esteem-at-work perspective, I have an idea for you. On your first day, ask how your performance as a new hire will be monitored. (For example, when my supervisors at my last job hired someone new, I had them give detailed performance reviews at 30, 60, and 90 days.) If there's a system like that in place, make sure to keep notes on things you're struggling with and things you feel confident about, so you can lead the conversation about your performance at review time.
If there's not such a system in place, ask your supervisor for 15 minutes every couple of weeks or so to go over your performance, get feedback on what you're doing well, and give you his or her undivided attention to explain things in more detail if you're having trouble. These meetings can continue until you're fully up to speed on the job requirements.
I can tell you, as a former manager, if we didn't already have something set up to monitor progress, I'd have been impressed as hell if a new hire suggested something like this. It shows initiative and a desire to do well, and as an added bonus for you, you get to hear compliments on your performance regularly, which will only make you more confident as time goes on.
Best of luck with the new job!
You will find your fit eventually. I have a problem with interpersonal stuff. So I try and shy away from jobs that I have to be "on" at. all the time. Having good self-esteem does help. It's a fragile thing for lots of people.
Good luck to you :-) Hope this employer is cool and everything is mellow in your work environment :-)
Ask and you shall recieve!
Those are great goals!!