I hear it too, iam. You sound frustrated with cycling and that is completely validated! I can't stand it when I feel a change coming. I'm sighing with you - ugh. Distraction anyone?

Feel better!! My T would say: This too will pass.

I second what spacekat said. I get this frustration as well!! Hang in there, you got this. Love and (((hugs)))!!!

Don't you DARE get passive on us now....even though I/we will LOVE YOU no matter What, lol.

I was thinking about this very thing this morning, because I have been battling the sneaky Depression symptoms since Sunday...they are Here, and they are Real....my moods are swinging, no matter how much I Blame everything else that is happening in my life....it's Obvious. I'm sleeping more, I'm wanting Pasta (WTH??), I'm affected more by music, and activity, etc. I"M TIRED. Gah.


...Which doesn't address your numbness....but what I was Thinking, is how in the past I have just Accepted these "feelings" that come over me, and fuck up my life....like I don't have ANY say in them.

...Really?? Yes, the mood swing is Here, and it's Going to make me tired, and cranky, but By God I Don't Have To Let It Mow Me Down Like So Much Roadkill!! Grrrrr.

I, myself, have been at the Mercy of these things for Too Long, iam. "Watching" it happen, crying about it, losing complete control without Even putting up a Fight!! (Not This Time, buddy)


I got up this morning and walked, and picked up trash like I planned, and got on my elliptical for a few minutes when I got back, and showered and made my bed and ate breakfast....then went back to BED for an hour or so!!! LOL (I'm Tired!!!) But I'm Fighting, as long as I can, because I am TIRED of being a doormat while bipolar disorder walks all over me.

Want a hand to hold? We're Here. And a cheering section!! And anything Else we have to offer, because we Hear you, and love you, and it's a BATTLE.

MA

do you have any coping skills, mantra's, brain games or tricks?

Meds will not fix us, we need to think of things to challenge the brain, that is working against us!

Numb is good, if you were in rage! LOL cheaper anyway : )
((((BIG HUG))))

It does suck!

Sorry to hear. I am going through numbness right now...like I'm just going through the motions to get through each day and just wanting to sleep away depression. Lots of things bringing me down. I'm trying to not focus on the shitty part of BP manifesting all this, but rather shitty Real Life things that other 'normal' people go through, too. I guess rationalizing it that way makes me feel more human and not alone. Like that song....'Everybody Hurts.....sometimes.'

I went to bed after making this post and after a few minutes I fell asleep, thank goodness. I'm rested, not as irritated, the oncoming numbness has disappeared. My creative outlet is writing but lately I've been unable to do that. I don't think I have a coping skill per se. I'm still trying to figure out what helps. Sigh. It felt good to get some of the frustration out in that post. Thanks for being there and all the advice :-)

Ever think of going to a real life support group? NAMI or DBSA?

or therapy that helps us change our thinking like DBT or CBT?

IT sucks, but we have some choices, some times....lol not all the time!

Oy! I did not realize you were in Jamaica! That adds island fever too! ((((BIG HUG))))) Please forgive and forget all those American groups and programs on every corner!!!!! You might peek, but probably not!

Glad you here! Global safety and support : )

DBT? CBT? Could you explain what those are? I tried finding a support group in my area and I couldn't even find one in the country. Sadly, mental health is not taken as seriously here as it should be. We literally only have one mental institution in the whole island though all hospitals have psych wards. I still don't think they're very effecient or effective. By some miracle our national health fund subsidizes depression meds. I still think we can do way more. I've been doing some serious research on how we handle mental disorders and what rights we have.

Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (there are some stuff online you can do!!!)

Dialectical behavior therapy (DBT) is a therapy designed to help people change patterns of behavior that are not effective......

For me, this sounds weird - but all my coping skills that I USE daily, I got from Alanon, and I do know you have them there! Weird but true and its free! again, worked for me!

I change the word "alcohol" to any noun I"m dealing with - the tools to change your thoughts and make better choices for YOU not others, priceless - to me : )

Don't know about any alanons here but I'll check. Maybe my pdoc knows about one. Thanks, Gina and I like your dp.

Alanon and 12 step groups have tools - well, I imagine HEALTHY people know them (I don't like the word normal) but I had to learn them, and as always - LOL - I have to learn things the hard way!!!

One day at a time (Or minute by minute, I can do something for 5 minutes I couldn't imagine doing my whole life"

Just for today - just for today I can TRY and be happy, not try and handle all my problems at once

Live and let live - well, the first part of that slogan to me - is LIVE or GET A LIFE lol, the second part, I can change anyone elses thoughts, memories or actions - best to let them learn their own lessons or consequences

LOL I could go on and on, but I had to hear this shit, years before I got it! : ) sorta like just keep putting thing in your head, hoping one day it will pop up when you need it : )

For me anyway, this stuff helps...,

oops, I CAN'T change anyone elses Shit, choices, behaviors, actions, words, memories.....

Shit, I barely know what's going on in my head!