Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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ZanyBeeper 02/15/2011

I had a dream one night not too long ago where I gave in and quit fighting the devil. It felt peaceful, but I know of the pit of fire that I will swim in when the time comes. I could never be that bad person. IMHO, there is too much good and love in me for that.

I continue to mull over quitting my meds, with a doctor's order, of course. Was my mania simply psychosis brought on by my smoking marijuana? Was it that mixed with the Holy Spirit within me? Or am I really bipolar?

O ask these questions every day. Sometimes several times a day. Around and around in my head and all I can come up with is a bunch of summations and a big "I DON'T KNOW!!" What do you guys think, besides that I am shithouse crazy?? LOL.

deleted_user 02/15/2011

Tough question Chelle. I ask myself the same thing, only not so much anymore. I do believe I am bipolar, too much of my past life points right to the classic behavior as well as an attempted suicide.

I have come to some kind of peace with the whole thing and know that my meds are what's helping me do that.

Do you really feel you are misdiagnosed Chelle? Do you honestly believe that without meds you wouldn't spiral into the ground?

deleted_user 02/15/2011

I also ask myself these types of questions, especially AM I REALLY BI-POLAR? The answer I always come up with is Yes. I hate to admit it and I hate taking all my meds, but I know that if I go without them I will not be able to function.

I hope you find the answers you are looking for.

deleted_user 02/15/2011

I do that also, not the devil part but the questioning part.

CarlaBent 02/15/2011

Yeah, sometimes I wonder if I'm really Bipolar.
What I do think all of the time is that you are going to Heaven!!! At least going by how you present yourself here on the boards!!!!
I guess you should lay off the grass if it contributes to your not feeling well.
I'm sorry that you're troubled by these questions!! I hope you have peace of mind soon!!! (((((Hugs)))))

deleted_user 02/15/2011

I wonder if I am bp and if the meds I take hurt and not help me.
I once worked a crazy job full of stress and had not problems and I just depressed that I lost that job and in morning and not bp.
questions I ask myself a lot of latley so far I havn't come up with any answers so I don't knoe.

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