Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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offbalance 09/14/2009

My evey action and every mood, I feel, is so focused in on. Am I being supported? Or am I worried over? Or both? Everyone is so concerned over what I do and over how everything will affect me. I understand that the smallest thing can be over exaggerated in my mind, and it then triggers my symptoms and characteristics that are not really how I see things nor how I truly feel about that given situation. Every episode and every symptom takes me back to the beginning, they tear down the progress I've made and the things that I worked so hard to rebuild. And as a result, people make up their own theories over what really triggered me. None of them are ever accurate, at least not according to my own perception, the one I have when I'm stable, the true person inside of me, separate from bipolar. How am I ever going to gain independence with everyone watching me so closely? Any comments? -offbalance

deleted_user 09/14/2009

I can't say that I had a whole lot of family around me when I was unstable, however my wife was. She hovered over my every move including takeing notes on my behavior and presenting them to the doctor with out my knowledge. At the time I found it in furiating. As if I wasen't paranoid enough already. As time when on and I gradualy returned to a state of normal and began to think clearly my wife was still over my shoulder. I had to sit her down 3-4 times and explain that I was ok she could relax. Still nothing. I was have been stable for 2years and yeah she has relaxed a bit, but she still watches me and makes sure I don't just tell the doctor Im fine and walk out. I think that your family watches you because they love you. And it's important should you ever have trouble again. I think this overattention is somthing you will have to live with as I belive it is the price for putting our families throught so much greif.

deleted_user 09/14/2009

i believe that it is a work in progress, so to speak... things happen to tear me down... and then i have to do, like you said ... build back up... i am a rapid cycler too... so the rebuilding goes on all the time... and lots of things get to me... so i must keep on keeping on to try to find that balance... good luck to you... :)

HannaHana 09/14/2009

I'd say it's partially a good thing to have so many people that are watching over you.

Annoying, yes...especially when they're so wrong about things, but they're there for you nonetheless. I'd just be open with them about the truth of things. How they're wrong about certain triggers...clarify.

Good Luck!

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