I've felt the energy shift for some time now.....I feel like I weigh a ton and a half and just feel so weighed down like everything is a struggle to me. I want to cry over anything and everything....rage too. The cycle continues and I was doing so well....now I could care less if the world was coming to an end......I'd actually welcome it right now. It's upsetting to be "ok" one minute and feel like such shit all within a small moment. I'm sad, I'm struggling, I'm tired but can't sleep, cry and can't stop, want to hurt myself but know I can't get away with it without someone finding out....just wanted to get this out there somewhere and maybe it'll help to "voice" it, I don't know. I look around and feel as if I am in a dream, that this isn't my llife, that I'm outside looking in at someone else's. I want to stay in bed and not move....just lay there and hopefully disappear, but I know I don't have that option, it pisses me off that I don't actually. Nothing feels that important to me now, not even my own life......I want this to end soon and I am trying to stay "up" and failing horribly it seems. Don't even know why I'm posting just thought it might help I guess.....thanks for reading.