Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
So over the past few years I have been feeling like crap, like I'm in a rut. First, I want to start by saying my relationship status doesn't really have to do with it. I struggle to keep a job and be happy with it (months-year, but then huuuuuuuuuuuuuge gap between jobs). I am currently unemployed and have been since July 2014, due to my health going down the toilet. While I am not homeless, my living situation is not ideal (24, living with bf and his mom). I HATE the town I live in, but again, no money equals I am stuck where I'm at. I haven't been in college since 2012 due to money and anxiety and have no degree. I have no real idea what I want to do for a career, because my interests are widely spread (psychoanalyze, forensics, science and baking). I know that I'm 24 and to some people they think oh you have your whole life ahead of you to figure that out, I don't want to waste money/time on getting a degree in a field that I'm either not good at or miserable in.
I just *sigh* feel so frustrated with my life. I have tried to turn it around many times over the years, but then something happens and I end up right where I was. I feel dumb, depressed and worthless. I have been trying to get back into going into counseling, but I'm not sure how I feel about it when she stares at me blankly with nothing to say. Then after I tell her ok, let's work on my self esteem issues she tells me to come up with a list of my positives. Even if I come up with positive qualities about myself I know, as should she that even with knowing the good a person with like any mental disorder can dwell on the negativity or false reality.
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I just *sigh* feel so frustrated with my life. I have tried to turn it around many times over the years, but then something happens and I end up right where I was. I feel dumb, depressed and worthless. I have been trying to get back into going into counseling, but I'm not sure how I feel about it when she stares at me blankly with nothing to say. Then after I tell her ok, let's work on my self esteem issues she tells me to come up with a list of my positives. Even if I come up with positive qualities about myself I know, as should she that even with knowing the good a person with like any mental disorder can dwell on the negativity or false reality.
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((Big hug)) It's tough getting everything figured out. First -- you need a new counselor STAT. The gal you're seeing isn't the only therapist in town so find one whose style is more compatible with you.
Your interests are very diverse and each of those fields is intense. Be sure to keep that in mind when you pick a path because sometimes intensity + bipolar is not a good equation. My son-in-law is in the culinary field. He skipped the fancy, high-priced programs for a top-rated community college culinary program. Got out of college debt-free, was well-trained and assisted in finding his first position and now he just opened his own restaurant.
When my world gets tangled up, overwhelming and I start to get paralyzed, I just remember to "do the next right thing." So, Twisted, just do the next right thing.
You need to change your therapist .
I'm here if you want to talk. I think we could both use a friend