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I recently had to have a cat scan done on my chest and the upshot of it was that they said the diagnosis to be ruled out was metastasizing cancer. The doctor I was to see to talk about the test never got a copy until I happened to bring a copy my surgeon had given me after a follow up. I had it faxed to him from my family doc's office and then phoned him to let him know it was there for him to look at and yet he hadn't seen it until the day I showed up for my appointment. I gave him my copy and he glanced at it for about twenty seconds and said he wanted to have a rescan in about three months to see what was happening. I was told by my surgeon that the next thing she would do was a needle biopsy of the things growing in my lungs but he looks for less than a minute and then says we can wait. What if we wait while it moves into the other organs of my abdomen? Metastasizing means spreading does it not? There are a bunch of these things in there and he seems like he hasn't got the time of day for me.
I'm angry and afraid and feeling so anxious and depressed and feel like I've been marginalized totally and that this doc doesn't give a shit about me. Which he probably doesn't.
My depression is the worst it's been in years and the same for my anxiety and I just hope I can find a bit more compassion in my psych doc when I see him. I need to get stronger anti anxiety meds and I don't know if that will do it anyway.
I'm going off the deep end here. Nothing like dying to make you think about dying your own way, quickly and with no pain.
Oh well. Life has no guarantees I guess so I don't have to follow any rules.
Just sign me as losing it for this post.
I'm angry and afraid and feeling so anxious and depressed and feel like I've been marginalized totally and that this doc doesn't give a shit about me. Which he probably doesn't.
My depression is the worst it's been in years and the same for my anxiety and I just hope I can find a bit more compassion in my psych doc when I see him. I need to get stronger anti anxiety meds and I don't know if that will do it anyway.
I'm going off the deep end here. Nothing like dying to make you think about dying your own way, quickly and with no pain.
Oh well. Life has no guarantees I guess so I don't have to follow any rules.
Just sign me as losing it for this post.
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Hey All...I hope that you have a lovely, peaceful beginning of your weekI have a bunch of chores that need doing but may put them off til tomorrow and just hang out with my landlord/roomie todayWhat about you?...Anything special going on?Have a great day and take good care of you!!..Xo
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Once again I've had a fever today. I'm not going to the hospital because that's a huge waste of time but I did schedule a dr appointment for Wednesday afternoon.
I know how it is when we Reallllly feel strongly about our problems, whether they are physical or mental, and we get "hyped up" to go to the doctor and make Sure they Address these issues....then it Hurts when they seem not to Care, or something.
I don't think it's really what happens, but I do it too - get all excited about going to the doctor about something and then get Crushed when the doc doesn't spend enough time even Acting concerned or knowledgeable - so I Hear you.
I hope your pdoc is more attentive to you than that, and if you're Really concerned that this other doc might have Missed something, don't hesitate to get another opinion!
Huggggs -
I am so dishearten to hear this. Maybe get another Dr. Ofc I don't know what your ins.or situation is but at least speak up and let the his office know how you feel. That's ridiculous that he hadn't already looked at them. I wish I had words to say about your depression but I'm really at a loss. It's horrible to be made to feel a victim to his insensitivity so let your voice be heard and fight for your life. BIG HUGS!!!
I've met a few surgeons and I think they're best with people that are sleeping...
I'm so sorry you've been hurt open...I would see if you can see your pdoc more often over this time as well your therapist if you have one and if you don't I would ask for a referral...
The support can help sweetie
I would also make an appt with your GP for a consultation ...Have a list of questions to take in open... Your GP might also be a good resource for support over this time
Try and reign yourself in sweetie... Don't guess what might be wrong... Perhaps your GP can talk with the surgeon and get some answers for you
You are in my prayers....xo
The diagnosis on the catscan was that the cancer was what they deemed the likely problem that had to be ruled out by whatever means. I guess having so many pulmonary nodules gave them the idea that they are spreading through my lungs and that's why they checked the other abdominal organs as well. I just think waiting for three months is a simple minded plan and then checking to see if things have gotten worse, or harder to treat is just wrong. I'm not a doc but when a surgeon tells me that her likely next step would be the biopsy then that's what I expected. Lets find out if cancer really is the problem as they thought in the catscan report. I was so put off that I forgot to tell him that my left arm has been numbed out for about two weeks and that it had included my hand for about four days as well. I couldn't even get something out of my pocket with that hand.
Now, as with every other time I've called the office - to tell them about the fax that I had had sent to them, and to finalize my appointment- I have yet to get anything but the machine and no callback. It seems like a shoddy operation to me as well as uncaring and it just pushes all my bipolar buttons and anxiety buttons and makes me feel like a bag of crap. The metastasizing cancer was definitely not ruled out it was the one thing they made clear was ruled in.
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Sometimes our doctors don't let us in on what they are thinking. Like weighting an intrusive surgery with the risk of waiting it out. I don't know if that is what your doctor is doing but if I felt like he just doesn't care I would be finding another doctor real soon. A second opinion is usually a comforting thing.
You either "insist" your doctor take some time to discuss your worries or find one that will. You can't live under the constant stress for three months. Hopefully, Understanding your diagnosis will bring you peace.
I have a blocked artery. They are supposed to do a catheterization. They "sent" me to Voc Rehab. They say that for the poor, "they send folks to Voc Rehab if you work and the VR pays for it. My a**--right. The Voc Rehab lady says that she doesn't lknow fi they can help. So, I take my asprin and prilosec and klonapin everyday, scared half to death and waiting for answers.
I knwo that your situation is far more serious than mine. I would communicate my dismay and really push for getting better answers/clarification. Remind themn that you are the patient and they are there for you.If there is a way to do this, I would do it. Be assertive and direct.
Hugs,
RIB
Firstly, thanks for being there for me. I phoned the doc back because when he told me we were just waiting I was so flabbergasted that I forgot to tell him about numbness down my arm and now spreading to my foot as well. When I phoned up to get another appointment they had nothing until I told them what it was about and then I was in the next week. He was glad I came back and all of a sudden they are setting up my lung biopsy. It doesn't make me feel any better still not knowing anything yet but at least we're on the road to finding out. I hope it's nothing but of course in the meantime I'm really down and out and my anxiety problems are just going nuts as well. It's sheer hell. Thanks for your support though, I'll try to keep you all more up to date than this but I've just been sort of out of it and not online a lot you know?
I"ll talk to you all soon.
J