It's understandable to be feeling awful and terrified when going through depression. I get a lot of anxiety when I'm experiencing depression. I try to remind myself that if I'm feeling anxious about something that it is the depression creating anxiety and my mind is trying to find a cause other than physiological. When anxiety goes away so do the anxious thoughts and worries. I think going to the beach for a couple of nights with your son is a great idea!
While I wait for the right meds, I usually use light therapy to help treat my depression as well as some CBT and DBT. I hope you feel better soon!

Did your psych nurse give you any directions on the change? Like to start with a half pill or special dose or anything like that? It may not be needed in this switch but sometimes pdocs give instructions to help ease the change.

I hope you’ll have a good time away at the beach!

yes she did give direction on ween myself of the medication while starting the new one. She's a great mental health professional. Thank you for the reply Hobolady. Hugs.

Are there any basis to your fears - like potentially being evicted soon? Or is it all the bipolar? I just wanna be sure we're just going with generalized anxiety and not other external things.

Hubs and I went on vacation a few years ago. I cried the first 2 hours on the road. After that, things went okay. Just had to get out of my system, I guess.

I also have been homeless - twice. It's survivable. I don't recommend it, but it could have been worse. I also have a loveseat & a recliner for you & the boy if it ever comes down to it. I will keep you fed & sheltered til you can find your footing. Certainly wouldn't be the first homeless person to have a hot meal under my roof. :)

Big hug sweetie.... You are catastrophizing.... Perhaps break things down right now into days or even hours....

I would try NOT to put all of your worries into one big melting pot.... It's too overwhelming and no one can handle that but you can handle the next hour or few minutes

There are a lot of grounding techniques on google that can help.... Maybe pick up a colouring book tomorrow and some crayons.... That can help with anxiety

I don't know if you've ever been into Cognitive therapy but it could help you or a Cognitive group to help with anxiety...... Big hug.....xo

Grounding techniques..... They work Jenn. and they work pretty quickly..... No they won't solve big problems however they do quash anxiety that creeps up... xo

https://www.healthline.com/health/grounding-techniques#physical-techniques

Thank you everyone. It does my heart good to receive such kindness. No I'm not homeless. I have section 8 voucher and is looking for an available place. Right now we live with my son's grandma. Homelessness is just one of the things I worry about like money. I have depression with some grief over the loss of my cousin.
It's just so hard switching med. and your mind gets messed up. Please pray for me. thank you in advance.

Praying for you Jennifer!

That is great news! Section 8 houseing seems like a good program. I don't know about your state but in Iowa, you can rent from any landlord who will accept it, and don't have to live in low-rent housing. That enables you to find a nice place and have an opportunity to approach the landlord about accepting Section 8. I know some people are able to find landlords who will accept the Section 8 without them having to put in their portion of rent. Not technically legal, but I'd much rather see tax dollars housing someone rather than bombing families in other lands.

Thank you everyone.