Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
I have told my psychiatrist that recently really for a long time I have vision of
me successfully taking my life.
I envision my self already in a coffin and in a nice grey suit.
I laugh at the idea or thought that anyone will be there crying or sad by my death.
I even came close to actually carrying this out by taking a kitchen knife and push it on in, the pain is no worser than getting shot.
I have attempted suicide a lot of times, but usually catch myself, but this time I plan on just doing it, my family call the crisis line and they talk me down, but I just don't see why I am here?
Was I sent to suffer or be a success?
me successfully taking my life.
I envision my self already in a coffin and in a nice grey suit.
I laugh at the idea or thought that anyone will be there crying or sad by my death.
I even came close to actually carrying this out by taking a kitchen knife and push it on in, the pain is no worser than getting shot.
I have attempted suicide a lot of times, but usually catch myself, but this time I plan on just doing it, my family call the crisis line and they talk me down, but I just don't see why I am here?
Was I sent to suffer or be a success?
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Hey All...I hope that you have a lovely, peaceful beginning of your weekI have a bunch of chores that need doing but may put them off til tomorrow and just hang out with my landlord/roomie todayWhat about you?...Anything special going on?Have a great day and take good care of you!!..Xo
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Once again I've had a fever today. I'm not going to the hospital because that's a huge waste of time but I did schedule a dr appointment for Wednesday afternoon.
I'm so glad you have your family to help you..
You are here to succeed and thrive.. It takes work at times but it's worth it..
If you need to please go to emerg.. There is help for you
Great big hug of comfort and a blessing...xo
In my area there is aPsychiatric Emergency Response Team, when things get really bad. I hope you have some kind of recovery action plan when you get into a crises.
I was pretty depressed today and didn't do a whole lot so I really had to monitor my thoughts.
I wish you a brighter day tomorrow.
And why would you want to hurt your family by dying? Can you imagine their state of mind after you commit suicide? Probably a lot of guilt,, why would you want to upset the people close to you in such a drastic way? I can understand self hate, but damn, dont put grief upon others too. They rather see you live life and slowly work on yourself and your issues. Everything takes times. Life goes on, our perceptions change, mindset changes.
I'm very sorry that your life is filled with so much suffering and hate seeing that 'red face' on your profile.
I wish you were happy.
I'm pretty sure that there will be people crying for you and saddened by your death, should it come to that.
I don't even know you and the thought of it makes me sad right now.
I wish I could offer you a brighter future.
And while I can't, I CAN say that I think the possibility of one does exist.
Do you feel that you are receiving the best treatment possible?
Did your Pdoc respond to what you told him or her by offering any concrete advice as to what to do about your suicidal tendencies?
A change in meds?
Has ECT been considered, if all else fails?
Please hang around.
Life may get much better for you than it is right now!!!
(((((Hugs)))))