I get like this when I am depressed. I want people in the house but not near me. I am fearful and get anxious about going outside or driving somewhere alone and just wont do it. I get high anxiety over little things. I have become more comfortable in my own house alone but fear "myself" and where my thoughts will take me without someone here with me. I hope you feel better sweetie. I would try the anti depressant if you dont fear it throwing you into mania. It may help you with some of this. Hugs

I notice that alot of times my feelings in my dreams will stay with me.

Ever dream your spouse/bf/gf was cheating or leavin? And wake up with that horrible sence of being alone?

I know I do.

I think my emotions are to powerfull to just evaporate with the morning sun, even if I forget what I dreamt about.

Might sound fruity... but thats what I know about myself.

Thank you for the replies.
It probably doesn't help I have anxiety problems. I just feel like I'm flipping out.
Does this madness ever end?

I wish I could tell you it ends, but it doesnt. We can manage it with meds and therapy that gives us tools to use while experiencing it. We learn as we move forward on our journey, like what to avoid that are triggers. We evolve learning who we really are and what distinguishes us from the disorder. But, unfortunately it is a disorder that is with us for life. It may change faces but it never goes away. Hugs

Thank you for your advice and kind words.
I was recently diagnosed and for the last few months it's been like a rollercoaster that I just want off of. I don't feel "normal" anymore and for a couple of months just feel stoned all the time. I'm sick of it.

I understand mystie. It is very important to see a pdoc and therapist regularly. It could be your meds making your feel the way you do. Be open with your docs and work with them to find stability for yourself. Hugs

I get like this when I feel depressed and feel very anxious. Relaxation tehniques and Klonopin seem to help me.

mystie,the first few months are the worst.Because your Pdoc is going to try diff meds to see what works for you.

You'll probably feel like a lab rat,if you go through a lot of med changes(I went through 8 meds in the first year!)...EVENTUALLY,things will hopefully even out.
But you must be patient,and trust that your Pdoc is wanting to find the right med for you...and that he/she ,will work with you,to bring you back to a more stable place.

It's not easy,and your fears and crying are quite natural.....just hang in there,and give the meds a chance to start working(sometimes it takes a few weeks).

If you continue to feel bad,bring it up to your Pdoc.....the meds we take will not "cure" us,but the meds can make your life more livable...
best of luck

I have taken Lithium for 14 years and have experienced certain times that I am just "non-plussed".

Talking to other people who are not Bipolar, they too experience similar feelings, so I reckon it is only natural.

We can't be fully functioning all the time, or else we would not be human.

I hope the anxiety eases off.If you already suffer from anxiety then no amount of advice will truly ease totally.It's scary for a while.Terrifying.

Thank you for all the great responses.
I just have to try to continue to ride it out.