Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
Well I went to the pdoc for a evaluation. The original dx's one was with a therapist and I thought "mania" was anxiety. What a mess.... She put me "BP1 with HIGH mania". I've never experienced good mania where I felt good and wanted to get involved in something and accomplish something. I've never stayed up or wanted to be risky or spend money. I'm just down in the dumps all the time, just flat
The Dr. diagnosed me after a evaluation as "mood disorder non specific". And she changed my meds. Thank God for everything that had happened.
My Giant is I needed to get the carpenter over here to put in my air conditioner. He said " I heard you were sick". Oh my goodness was I sick last year. I lost it in front of everybody for almost a year. I lost my business here and nobody talks to me. I got drunk and told everybody off. kicked out my husband, and cheated on him here in front of this small community. I'm so humiliated again. It's like a bad dream that doesn't leave. IT'S OVER AND OVER AGAIN am I reminded what I did.
In the hospital I had a really bad UTI that went to my brain. I had a ear infection in both ears. My thyroid was way too high and there is a name for it and it was 3 days before I started and I've be diagnose with PMDD. Then this MDD episode of crying, hitting, anger, despair. I was hallucinating people were shooting at me the tv was talking to me, giant bugs were crawling all over the place and me. Just a never ending nightmare of year episode.
Honestly I can't remember what was in my mind and what I actually did or said. I feel trapped with not knowing what really happened. It's like a big cloud hanging over me. And a bigger part of me really doesn't want to know. Oh man...dealing with this is horrible.
Thanks for letting me air this out and being there for me. I'm sorry for being such a nag but there isn't anybody here that knows anything about this.
The Dr. diagnosed me after a evaluation as "mood disorder non specific". And she changed my meds. Thank God for everything that had happened.
My Giant is I needed to get the carpenter over here to put in my air conditioner. He said " I heard you were sick". Oh my goodness was I sick last year. I lost it in front of everybody for almost a year. I lost my business here and nobody talks to me. I got drunk and told everybody off. kicked out my husband, and cheated on him here in front of this small community. I'm so humiliated again. It's like a bad dream that doesn't leave. IT'S OVER AND OVER AGAIN am I reminded what I did.
In the hospital I had a really bad UTI that went to my brain. I had a ear infection in both ears. My thyroid was way too high and there is a name for it and it was 3 days before I started and I've be diagnose with PMDD. Then this MDD episode of crying, hitting, anger, despair. I was hallucinating people were shooting at me the tv was talking to me, giant bugs were crawling all over the place and me. Just a never ending nightmare of year episode.
Honestly I can't remember what was in my mind and what I actually did or said. I feel trapped with not knowing what really happened. It's like a big cloud hanging over me. And a bigger part of me really doesn't want to know. Oh man...dealing with this is horrible.
Thanks for letting me air this out and being there for me. I'm sorry for being such a nag but there isn't anybody here that knows anything about this.
Thank God that I'm now treated. This giant has already been defeated when I got sick they made their mind up, and so there is no other way but to accept it and move through it.
thanks for being there. I wouldn't have been about to work through that one if I wasn't able to vent. Thanks again all :0)
i wish you success with your new meds...keep us posted? xx