hi there.
sorry you're struggling. this is a crappy time of year for so many people.

So true mojo....
Trying really hard to keep busy and positive

Easier said than done

Danke... I love DS for days like this! I don't feel so alone...

Sorry you are having such a bad time right now. Try setting an alarm on your phone to go off at a certain time to remind you to take your meds. Good Luck and hang in there

Hiya!
I think many of us find this time of year hard going. Try and remember that even though it doesn't feel like it right now...this will pass.
And if there's anything that you can think of that you know when you do it it'll make you feel even a little bit better, then give yourself that time to just be good to yourself in the best way you know how.

yes this is a rough time of year! vent on!

Well family is coming and this will be the first year in many that I have no escape. No boyfriend, no best friend, no where to hide out. I feel like a loose cannon ready to blow at any poor unsuspecting soul. My sister and her kids.... that's who I want to see. Yet I can't help feeling scared that its all going to blow up in my face. I'm on the verge of tears almost all of the time. I am also kinda gone from myself. Like I am watching myself write this and feeling quite detached. I am feeling impulsive but lazy.... ahh.... I swear I'm such a loser

i don't think you're a loser, just way, way overwhelmed. it happens to the best of us.

Its gonna work out fine, just have a little faith. Be strong and firm. You can do it and you are NOT a loser. Don't ever tell yourself that again!

Sorry your having a hard time, This is a great place to come when no one else will listen. I say things here, I can never tell anyone else, or they would never talk to me again.

Thankyou all for understanding.

It's just so strange to be alone after all this time. I wish I could talk to my mom because she is really smart but she isn't the best at understanding MY problems. It would scare her... and then I would feel bad. No one seems to think anything is wrong. So many years I spent honing my "happy act" its second nature I guess...auto pilot.

Okay perhaps I am being dramatic but shit I'm just trying to cope here. I get sick of talking to myself :b

I'm glad you have internet so you can hang out with us. If you are a loser (which you're not) than I guess we're all losers.

I'm sorry to hear you are feeling alone right now. Being lonely on top of the mood symptoms you are experiencing is very difficult. But, I don't need to tell you that. Doh!

I hope you are able to spend quality time with your sister and her children, and that you are sheltered from those family members who cause you stress.

It is good you are recognizing the potential 'blowups' so you can try to identify ways to minimize them.

I hope you get through this difficult time in ways that are less horrible than you're expecting! :)