It takes so much to just get in the shower, and take out my dog, and get in my car and drive to school or work. By the time I'm in class, I'm exhausted because I just used up the energy I had to get here. My affect is flat, and I can't participate, and my professors think that I'm just bored or disengaged.
I wish I could tell them that I'm exhausted. Exhausted from fighting most of my life to not let this disorder take more from me than it already has. I wish I could say, "Hey, I have bipolar disorder, and I'm not sleeping well, but I'm here. I made it to class." I don't want a pat on the back, or praise. I just want them to understand the strength, effort, and weekly sessions with my psychiatrist & my therapist I need to just be caught up with everyone else.
I suffer a generalised anxiety that strikes at its worst as soon as I wake up in the morning. The more I have to do that day, the worse it is. Simple things like driving to the shop or meeting a friend make my heart pound faster. This has been going on for 4 years. Anyone going through a similar thing?I read somewhere recently (it may have been on this forum) that physiologically in the brain,...
Just on friday the District attoney showed up at my door!! I didnt answer it though. All he left was a business card- no handwritten message or anything. Im so anxious im under investigation for something. I DO have medical and they do housechecks to make sure i live where i say, but im so uncertain at this point. My paranoia and anxiety have gotten the best of me