The only thing you have to do today is get you stuff together. You can do it then go back to sleep. I know you're up because you're typing. So just get it done and go back to bed.

does that help?

Yes x thank you I have avoided it all weekend and now its 18 22 so i had better get my are into gear. Have a smoke first though lol

i give you much credit for trying to motivate yourself for going towork.when i was ill,i would spend that time talking myself into not going into work and as a nurse that was not cool bc the staff hated me.i lost so many jobs bc of it.and now been out of work foralmost two years.just applied for disability......

youknow once you get their you will feel better
you need themoney
you wont suffer the guilt all day staying home
you can get right back into bed as soon as you get home
get up and take a shower the night before makesmorning easier
aftershower lay out all yourclothesand all you need for am
and just do it!!!!!!

I can so relate. Work is very stressful for me. The first step toward that office park and my heart begins to race. I expect the sky to fall on top of my head the moment I arrive. I expect yelling and pressure and anger. Who wouldn't feel reluctant to approach that?!?!

I really do take it minute to minute when I am there. And, even though I really need the money like everyone does, I know that i the job threatens my illness or my personal integrity, I can get up and walk out. Despite feeling like one, it is not a jail or locked psych ward. This reminder eases my perfectionism and fear and then I just try to do the work in front of me. but it is hard as hell.

Well get some rest today, get your stuff together.Eat a good meal, grab some breakfast in the morning and head out on time. Thats all I do. But I can't say that anymore because I don't work, but I have been looking gregariously