NOOOOOOOO please....I am here, me just little ole me...PLEASE I have attempted suicide so many times.....please contact me or a Pdoc...it's NOT over...please draw strenght from me...I give it to you freely..I am a new member but in a few clicks my life has been changed.
Don't give up...you haven't got to know me yet or visa versa. I bet we have alot in common. I never thought I could get over my childhood either and still haven'nt. Maybe you could help me. Maybe you could be the life line I have been waiting for....if I can't make you stop for yourself, maybe you can stop for me...a complete stranger who needs a life line.

How long have you been on your current meds? Sometimes they can take a considerable amount of time to work to their full effect. I think you might need something for anxiety if your not already taking something. If you are already taking something, call your pdoc and have them increase or change it. It will get better-this will pass, I know, I've been there!

Tell your doctor EXACTLY what you just said. And keep pushing him/her. It does get better...but finding the right combo of meds can take a while. Dont' give up, we've all been there and look at us now! Well,ok, maybe not EVERYBODY, but most of us are doing great.

DONT GIVE UP ON YOURSELF OR YOUR LIFE... MANY OF US HAVE BEEN WHERE YOU ARE NOW - AND IT IS LONELY ..GOOD THING YOU WROTE WHAT YOU DID COS MANY KNOW WHERE YOU ARE IN YOUR lIFE RIGHT NOW. change doctors find one who will listen - tell your friends and maybe a fAMILY MEMBER YOU CAN TRUST HOW YOU ARE FEELING RIGHT NOW. wE NEED HELP YOU ARE NOT ALONE YOU WILL BE AMAZED HOW HEALING COMES ... JUST BE STILL A WHILE AND TRUST THAT YOU ARE STONG ENUF TO hold on ....connect if you want to and there are others who can reach out too.

Well, that asshole of a shrink doesn't help any !
The thoughts of suicide I relate to but you mustn't treat them with any respect.You cannot validate those irrational thoughts.
You have to really be strong and firstly get the right people to support and help you.I am still seething about that psych.That is SO wrong.
Finding the right meds will only make sense to you if you are in contact with understanding doctors/psychs.
Those suicidal thoughts are bound to gain some weight if the rest of the shit around you is so silly and hurtful.

You owe yourself that chance to start with some level ground.To get there takes heart.

It took me a while to get through stupid people that, although working in mental health..haven't got a fucking clue..

So do things one by one before jumping to the suicide conclusion...which ain't no real conclusion anyway .
Peace.

The doctor you had was experiencing more problems then you. You just need to find the right dr. It took me several years to find the right meds but now that I have most days are good. There was a time when I did not think I could ever work full-time again. However, Ive been working full time for over 6 years now. Exercise in addition to your over treatment can help with the depression. Ive been known to walk while tears rolled down my face. However a walk is mush better then suicide. Please keep looking for a pd. You probably will be better off see someone without the religion aspect involved. I believe in God but dont want my dr. involving their religious viewpoint into treatment.