Trying to pay attention when I laugh or smile during the day because my internal dialogue says I never feel joy. The last time I remember feeling joy is when I was able to help one of my clients through a very difficult day. I was with him when he passed and he had wanted to go for such a long time. I felt joy when my dad passed because he suffered from many maladies including depression and I knew he was dismally and amazingly at peace. So for today, with my grandchildren starting their first of seven days in our care, my focus is going to be on catching myself feeling positive or joyful. Please wish me well. ❤️