So a little over a month ago I was so down I was ready to end it. I've wanted suicide before, but this time I was the lowest I'd been in 12 years, since I was hospitalized the first time. then I healed and came back strong. Recently I hurt some one who ignited a spark in me I hadn't expected, then I hurt her so bad that she will likely never speak to me again. However despite this, I feel no wish to kill myself, though the pain I feel now is much more valid and real than the betrayal I felt a little over a month ago. So even though environmental issues do definitely affect the balance of mood, it isn't entirely dependent on such criteria. Do you feel the same? do you have examples in support of your belief?
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