I met with my surgeon yesterday. He is the surgeon who I had when I had cancer in 2005 and in 2007. I have been having severe issues with diarrhea, nausea and pain. I was in the ER 3 TIMES in less than a month. I thought my gallbladder was bad. That's what the ER drs kept telling g me. So, I thought I was going to go to my surgeon and have him tell me I could have my gallbladder out and life would be rosy again. Instead, he told me that I have adhesions in my abdomen and damage to my "innards" (because of all of the surgeries I had plus I had hot chemo in my abdomen during surgey) he said there is nothing that can be done. That I will have to live like this FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. These adhesions can cause bowel obstructions, and doing surgery would be extremely dangerous and could kill me.
I survived cancer.....for this??? not only am I dealing with this, I am trying to wean off from lamictal. I'm trying to wean off from things that are not absolutely necessary because I am losing Medicaid soon and am gping to have to start paying copays for everything again. I am only making minimum wage, but because my job offers health insu rance. It is scary.
I am feeling very depressed and so hopeless. I don't know what to do or what to think.
I was chatting on the phone with a church friend and she mentioned one of my pastors at a church meeting made a comment that I was excited to return to church. She used my name even though I wasn't there. It made me feel special to know I am known and loved at my church :)what makes you feel special?
We have been married 25 years, I have lived through his porn addiction, the countless lies, an affair, almost loosing our business of 23 years because of his depression and then immigrating across the world to start all over again, through all of the above I have stuck by his side! The older he gets the more insecure, difficult, moody, irritable and super sensitive. I find myself constantly...