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death by fork

TC40
TC40
I am killing myself....not with a gun, or pills, etc....I am killing myself with food. I am in so much pain. Mentally, because I can no longer do much of anything. I see how people look at me, I am discriminated against at my job. Physically, everything hurts...BADLY. just walking hurts everything so much to the point that I FEEL like i am dying. I am slowly killing myself with food and it is not pretty. I am desperate. I am taking the scenic route. I wish I had the courage to just take pills and go quickly. I guess I always have done things the hard way. :(
Desigol1979
Desigol1979
I am beginning to have a 'Middle-Aged Spread' myself. (I'm 35) My recovery in Overeaters Anonymous has been stop-start for the past 3 years after a 2 year honeymoon period from 2010 to 2012. I need to combine it with exercise. (I have done it before and need to keep it going this time)
evildoer
evildoer
For me the problem with the fork is sugar addiction. For some of us it's very addictive even if we don't totally notice (just try to stop all sugar for 24 hours and typically the cravings will let you know, yup' addicted.) If I can get past 3-4 days with no sugar then my hunger goes away and I eat normally in small amounts and have no trouble controlling my intake.

Don't beat yourself up for eating. Eating is to be enjoyed. Food is good and can be so healthy and fun to make. Just trouble shoot life a bit and adjust things, look at it analytically instead of judgmentally. Does that make any sense? Be patient too, it takes a long time to make lasting changes.

I'm a fitness nut / lover of food - PM me if you want to talk. I have chronic fatigue due to Lyme or something another and IBS really bad so I struggle a lot too, but good attitude is everything.