Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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Shlay
Shlay
For the first time in my life I used the right coping skills. I didn't take too many pain or anxiety pills, I didn't cut and I didn't try to kill myself.

Massive kudo points for me.

I give God 100% credit for this one. It was beyond me. I guess I shouldn't have called my father today. I guess I should have just left my mothers bad mood alone. I shouldn't have done something that last night that triggered some flashbacks. But now I see some of my triggers.

I am so amazed in this all. I did the right thing. I will be okay. I'm numb, though still a bit wounded- but alive. And glad for it.

All I have to say is:

Holy. Shit.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Med tweaks and therapy can be a huge help too. I don't try to overdose or cut myself (well I never SI, are you borderline? If so therapy is a huge part of dealing with and getting over it, I would say much moreso than Bipolar), but I am on the right meds - they make a huge huge difference.
Shlay
Shlay
No one has told me I'm borderline. I don't think it fits. I never do these things for attention, though some like to think I do. I almost never cut anymore and when I did, no one knew about it. And I've tried to kill myself only (lmao I say only like its normal) once and since then I've been loads better... But I was off meds for almost a year and I'm still waiting for the new cocktail to work. I think my SI and attempt is more a product of years of abuse and bi-polar depression. I am on geodon and just started working my way up on lamictal again. Also, I do see my therapist once a week. I think I am trying to take on too many large life tasks at the moment and over loading myself.

Moving out soon
Working on things in therapy (i.e.. sexual abuse and turbulent family life)
Thinking about going back to college
Getting right with God
Becoming a better person
Addiction (And yeah, just admitting that to myself as I type this)

Just a boat load of stuff all at once and my mind and my environment are just attacking me every change they get.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I am soo glad that the crisis has been averted. You did a good job handling yourself. I can see you got quite a bit on your plate right now. Just take things one step at a time, one da at a time. Don't let other peoples problems get to you either, you got enough on your own. Again, great job and thanks for keeping us posted!
starfish
starfish
WOW!!!