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Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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Contributing to my hypo

iam30113
iam30113
I've been hypo for a few days and I think I might have pushed it a bit with the drugs and booze. Got high again last night and had an energy drink before bed. Woke up this morning and had two cups of really strong coffee. Now I feel like I'm on top of the world. Hey! Lol. That Imagine Dragons song. Hee hee. Aaaah. It's a good feeling cos it's not crazy mania yet and i will not let it get there. No more weed. And stuff. I think.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w5tWYmIOWGk
tommymott
tommymott
My experience with mania was that I didn't need any outside influences; once it started up it was self-sustaining. (without meds, that is) Good luck.
DoorMAwss
DoorMAwss
Um, Of Course it wound you up! lol (see, it's a Cycle: we get Wound Up, then we want to get into Doing things that wind us up More, then we are Really wound up, so we go and do More things that Wind Up.....) Goodness.

If' you're like me, you just replaying and replaying the night in your head, you know, because it just FELT GOOD, and part of you wishes you could go Right out and do it Again Tonight....because it's All about the feeling when we're manic - but Another part of you Knows how mania plays out, Every Time.

As much as I Hate to say it, iam, when I "tell myself it won't go there", like I'm reading you here, ....um, I give in anyway. I "Go there". Because it's Too Hard To Resist!

So it's time to be Accountable...does anyone else (who has your best interests at heart) know you are closing in on mania? Do you HAVE anyone you can Trust, to help you with money or decisions if you suddenly want to fly off to the moon or something? (or buy a boat, or travel without plans, or have rampant sex under a full moon...you know the drill)?

Letting someone else "help" hold the reins is Haaaaaard, and I Never like to do it; but it's Good, if you have someone who will Truly be willing to Help - with tough love, if necessary - and not throw it in your face like you're a bipolar child or something.

Huggggggs - we're Here. :/
iam30113
iam30113
I'm about to turn over my bank card to my housemate so i won't waste my savings. I don't trust her enough to let her in on the other aspects of my mania and my bf isn't here. I have therapy on Thursday but that probably won't help. And that idea of sex under the full moon- oh lordie loo, I wanna soooo bad. Right now I feel like blaring Partition in the office and do a strip number in the lobby. Ha ha. How rad would that be? I think the worst part of my mania is that my already crazy sex drive gets even more revved. Siiiiiiiiiiiiiigh. I feel like effing Beyonce, Carmen Electra, and Rihanna rolled in one right now. I'm bringing sexy aaaalllll the waaaaay baby!