Sounds like you may have seasonal affective disorder. Luckily, this can be remedied using a light box for 20-30 minutes a day. Have you heard of this treatment?

Yes , but my doctor says I'm bipolar and I get very hyper in summer too so I think he's right .

I use a light box because I get terribly depressed around October. If I kept the light box therapy going, I would be manic by April or earlier. Something you might consider?

You only use the light box therapy during the months you become depressed. My doc also doubles my dose of Wellbutrin during the winter months.

I used to be on Wellbutrin too , didn't do sh!t for me , most of my meds don't .thnx for taking the time to write :)

Okay. Go ahead and be scared.
BUT DO IT ANYWAY!!!!

Work backwards from the finished product and break it down into steps.

Like, your first step might be, 'Gather necessary supplies, tools, and information.'

If even THAT seems like to much, break it down further.

'Get my T-Square.'

Don't just think of the whole, huge, overwhelming project.
Focus on what small thing you need to do right now and start with that.

It will distract you from focusing on your fear and will give you a sense of accomplishment and more confidence that you can handle this job.

Good luck!!!
Make it a good hospital!!! I might need to stay there someday!!!!

(((((Hugs)))))

great advice from both. im affraid ta move to WA cause of the dark gloomy weather so i was thinking light box or tanning. its a great vitamin b booster.

Eul is so right, its easy to get overwhelmed being bipolar. i might not be a clean person but if things get cluttered in my small space i get overwhelmed. her idea with your project sounds like a great solution. Bipolar, ya you will be hyper & depressed, but don't talk urself into it either. one step at a time. set urself a time limit on each *section* not the entire project at once.

good advice for everyone here :)

I use a light box, lots of vitamin C & D -- vital -- and exercise. That said we haven't hit the winter yet when I usually break down into a puddle of misery.

The hardest part of a project is usually starting it. I'm a graphic designer and work on projects still and the first step is definitely the one I procrastinate and drag my feet on - from there on out it's usually okay and do alright.

Could you virtually build it like with legos or the Sims or some other mockup mechanism that would let you play with the design before drafting. I'm probably sounding stupid - architecture isn't my area. Sorry. Best of luck to you