Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
I think it could be dangerous to your wellbeing to do this on your own and now without a doctor
I hope you will seek medical help with your decisions
Big hug
good lluck.
Good luck!