Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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theloveisgone 09/19/2011

I just need to be alone for awhile...forever from him

I feel like hell and I am all marked up which makes me feel totally self conscious. You can see where he grabbed me, you Cant see where it really hurts.

I wish things didn't end the way they did. I wish I didn't have to feel so disgusted. I wish that he wasn't the him from the other night, that way we could still be friends

God Break ups are awful!

smoking1982 09/19/2011

yes they are know what your going thru it dose sux

dancingd 09/19/2011

I'm going on year 2 of my break up...I can't say it's getting any easier .

olenka1 09/19/2011

Are you ok? I'm presuming that your ex did some things he shouldn't have done? I'm around if you need to chat ok.

theloveisgone 09/19/2011

I am okay... all except for my heart--->cheesy?

deleted_user 09/19/2011

So sorry for what you are going through. I hope things get a bit better for you soon!

walkingthewhiteline 09/19/2011

I understand parts of what you are saying.

I was hit once by one man.

After that one fight, cause we both kick each others' a**, I kept getting up like a crazy boxing movie-I thought I could never be with him again.

I did get back with him for two months but I knew I didn't want a life time of abuse. I had seen men beat women like they are men and I didn't want to be a part of it. I broke up with that guy that hit me that time.

I used that memory of him hitting me to keep myself from going back to him ever again. I loved him, but for once in my life I knew I had to love myself more. I had to walk and keep walking.

That was over twenty years ago. Yeah I still wonder where he is sometimes, but I am happy I walked. I wouldn't have wanted physical abuse to ever happen again.

A matter of fact, I used that fight for future boyfriends. I told guys I wasn't going to hit them. I told them if they ever hit me they better be prepared to kill me because I would fight to the death of me. Again kind of like those boxing movies where the person keeps getting up.

So long story short-I'm guessing you may still have some feelings for him. You may want to do as I did and use the memory of him hurting you to distance yourself from the love you still have. It is possible to pull away.

I'm sorry and Good Luck,
Tamara

deleted_user 09/19/2011

((( hugs )))

deleted_user 09/19/2011

i'm on year 3 separated from a real jerk...the divorce was final in March YAY! But we have 2 teenagers, so I'll never truly be rid of him....he was horribly mentally and emotionally abuse, very underhanded about it too....not many have seen that side of him and he is a good dad or I wouldn't have backed down from the custody part, they are old enough to decide where they want to be, so I respected that.

deleted_user 09/19/2011

i'm also year 2 of my breakup, and it sure doesn't get any easier at all.
broken hearts suck.
(((hugs))))

SwordDancer 09/19/2011

Yep, it sucks! Going on year 2 for me as well. Getting easier though. Hugs

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