Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
i think im going through a depressive episode.....ive been feeling this way for days...i havent had an episode of mania or depression since maybe november..ive had the normal ups and downs depending on the situation but i was generally happy. i thought i was bp free.
i feel like dyingg...i tried to talk about this with my mom but shes not listening..she gets mad at me cuz she thinks im being dramatic..same when i try to come clean about my drinking...since no one wants to hear it i wont tell them anything....but im feeling soo loww....like i dread having to wake up and going to school i just wanna sleep..i feel so weak..i dont even wanna talk
like im not even being mean but even opening my mouth is hard....i always wanna break down crying and start breaking stuff....i feel like im alone...really alone...like i know people love me but i dont feel loved...or as loved as i would like to feel...am i a bad person for that?
i wanna hurt myself really really bad...something for an escape...idk wats going
i havent been on bp meds since october/november...im not going on them ever again..i hate the weight gain and am not dealing with that.
i feel lost and i wanna scream!
i feel like dyingg...i tried to talk about this with my mom but shes not listening..she gets mad at me cuz she thinks im being dramatic..same when i try to come clean about my drinking...since no one wants to hear it i wont tell them anything....but im feeling soo loww....like i dread having to wake up and going to school i just wanna sleep..i feel so weak..i dont even wanna talk
like im not even being mean but even opening my mouth is hard....i always wanna break down crying and start breaking stuff....i feel like im alone...really alone...like i know people love me but i dont feel loved...or as loved as i would like to feel...am i a bad person for that?
i wanna hurt myself really really bad...something for an escape...idk wats going
i havent been on bp meds since october/november...im not going on them ever again..i hate the weight gain and am not dealing with that.
i feel lost and i wanna scream!
are you drinking or sober lately?
ask for no weight gainer meds.. none of mine have a weight indication. it helps.
Alcohol is a depressant. I know it doesn't seem much like it, because it usually makes you feel better while you're doing it. But over the long haul, it can cause depression.
And in my case, much more anxiety, too.
So if you're drinking, stop. It may be making your symptoms worse.
I went off Lamictal once. It did such a good job that I didn't think I needed it any more.
I did well for about 4 months -- and then I didn't do so well, anymore.
There's lots of meds out there. Maybe you should consider giving them another try. Different ones than the ones that caused you to gain weight.
Good luck. How you are feeling sounds just dreadful!! (((((Hugs)))))
thank u for the response....i dont drink....i havent for 4 days...im not a drunk tho....drinking is not a habit of mine its just my attitude towards drinking that could be a problem...lately my anxiety bothers me too...im gonna do research on meds that dont make you gain weight