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I recently found out that I'm not experience clinical depression but grief as told to me by my psychiatric nurse practioner a few days ago. My husband died nearly 2 years ago. He wasn't just a spouse but a friend, too. He had cancer. When he was sick his family and maybe a friend would visit with him for several hours. This didn't bother me because I knew they want spend time with him. What did bother me was that they pushed me aside and couple of rude comments at my expense were made. His son and daughter-in-law were his caregivers which I didn't want them living at our place at first because it's small but then I saw what a good job they were doing with him so I was ok with it. The daughter-in-law said they would help go through his stuff and help with garage sale. this didn't happen. The day after my husband died everyone disapeared except for my teenage son from my 1st marriage(divorce). No one came over and don't remember any calls. FB messages, yes.
His family continued to ignored me and/or be rude to me. His son who caring for him, stole from me.
I was very hurt and angry at them for over a year about this. I ended up taking it out on my husband's memory because I was angry about they way treated me.
This year, when Feb. came, I started getting depressed because of Valentine's day(he wasn't he to my Valentine) and his birthday is on Feb. 23rd. I started to feel better when my 1st husband's youngest bother died of a heart attack. He was only 41. I wasn't close with him but I immediately though of his wife and devastation she must feel. I feel terrible for him and my 2 nieces. Since then I've been a wreck. It is now May and my husband died on May 21st. It will be the second anniversary of his passing.
I spoke to my dad about this yesterday. The same thing happened to him after my mom passed away. The grief hit him a year or more later. It is amazing that grief me about the same length of time as did for my father.
Having bp makes grieving even tougher. I've been really anxious scared of another crisis happening. I fear for my loved ones safety because I don't want anything terrible to happen to them. I'm so afraid of back news right now because I don't think I could handle it.
I don't know how my grief will last. I wish I could get back to feel like my more stable self.
His family continued to ignored me and/or be rude to me. His son who caring for him, stole from me.
I was very hurt and angry at them for over a year about this. I ended up taking it out on my husband's memory because I was angry about they way treated me.
This year, when Feb. came, I started getting depressed because of Valentine's day(he wasn't he to my Valentine) and his birthday is on Feb. 23rd. I started to feel better when my 1st husband's youngest bother died of a heart attack. He was only 41. I wasn't close with him but I immediately though of his wife and devastation she must feel. I feel terrible for him and my 2 nieces. Since then I've been a wreck. It is now May and my husband died on May 21st. It will be the second anniversary of his passing.
I spoke to my dad about this yesterday. The same thing happened to him after my mom passed away. The grief hit him a year or more later. It is amazing that grief me about the same length of time as did for my father.
Having bp makes grieving even tougher. I've been really anxious scared of another crisis happening. I fear for my loved ones safety because I don't want anything terrible to happen to them. I'm so afraid of back news right now because I don't think I could handle it.
I don't know how my grief will last. I wish I could get back to feel like my more stable self.
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I find myself going places in the car and not wanting to get out of the car. I come back home and I don't want to get out of the car. I think it's the only time I spend reflecting. Chronic tiredness from Long Covid plus the immunosupressing meds for my Crohn's is slowing me down but everything just seems a massive effort. I am dealing with the paperwork following my father's death but it's not...
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Wow, it's the middle of the week already!Today is our 11 year anniversary, so we're going out to a nice dinner. I'm losing a lot of sleep these days, hence a wonky schedule and uncomfortable feelings. But I know it will pass, eventually.I hope all of you have a peaceful day, and may good things come your way!
Problems with spouses family, the disappearence of friends and support, the reaction to other unrelated losses and an abiding fear are things common there. On reflection, I have had all those too. My first wife died a few months back and it brought it all back.
Both me and the wife mourned the loss of our cat and I think again both of us were thingking "well who is next?".
People generally in the western world belive things will stay the same. Loss of a partner makes you doubt the world. If your rock is gone what else is there.
And actually 2 years is often a bad time.
My advice, if you are looking for it, is to post on the widows and widowers board. I think you may find alot of people who are either going through the same or people who have gone through it and are probably much better than me at offering support on this particular subject.
Time's a healer.
hugs