You are adequate and able. It may not seem like it now but that's that little negative voice talking. Don't listen.

Sorry you are struggling to find your way. I just wanted to tell you I understand how you feel. Hugs.

I hope you can continue them, but yeah, we get it. Venting is Fine :)

Your dream may have been stress-induced; sometimes we are already stressed people even before we tackle projects like school and stuff.

I don't know you - is this your first attempt at "getting back into things" in awhile?

How do you handle everyday stresses in your life? (not counting school)

I have stress dreams all the time. I don't think the dreams are of "things to come" rather they are releasing some energy that you have brewing inside. Dreams are cleansing.

I bit off more than I could chew last year when I went back to school. I had to cut back to part time. It was a hard decision to make. Probably the hardest thing was to decide what it was that I really couldn't handle vs. what I really didn't want to do because it made me nervous. I didn't want to "get out" of anything just because of this stupid illness. I wanted to be able to accomplish as much as I possibly could so I could be proud.

I read a really interesting thing about dreams (I've always been really curious about their true meaning)....and I liked what it said in one of the books...that is, the (especially emotion-provoking ones like yours) feeling you get from the dream, is much more significant than its content, and especially when you feel like it's predicting doom (which is a common feeling associated with anxiety)...it is most likely an indication of the level of your anxiety. That seems to me, to be both accurate and comforting, relieving my anxiety about the "true" meaning of dreams. (nothing like feeling anxious about the meaning of dreams, to help you sleep well!!! lol!!)

This is an old piece of advice, and I heard it several times before I tried it, because it sounded so simplistic and kinda silly. But, if you take at least 3 slow, deep breaths when you feel that anxiety, it really does force your body system (starting with your breathing, which systematically slows everything else down, too) to also slow down. Try that just before you fall asleep, and just before your speech. See if it works!!

((( hugs )))

I have heard the same thing about the interpretation of your dreams from my tdoc that Starfish was saying. Very interesting stuff.

This happens to me a lot. I'll get hypmanic and start a bunch of projects or things like going to grad school but then I can't flollow through with it because I don't stay hypo and the derpession comes and then I just can't do it. It's good to vent. I wish you all the best and hope you find a way to manage all your classes.

My hats off to you for trying.

Don't give in---try taking a run, doing jumping jacks or sit ups until you get nice and sweaty. Then make your list of what you need to do. Get that play out of the way for sure--practice for stuffed animals and then visualize the people you are speaking to as stuffed animals.

College is difficult. But it is worth it in the end. Maybe you can get help from Special Student Services, help w/study skills and request extra help from the speech instructor.

My husband just got a degree, has dyslexia and was able to get lots of extra tutoring and a wonderful reader computer program. My son is also getting similar help.

Through college and university I engaged in continued venting add in crying, having major depressions, losing my folks, a couple of mild breakdowns and migraines and endometriosis and horrible pain every month. It took me 7 years including summers and even 2 stupid correspondence courses to get a 5 year degree. There were many times I wanted to give up completely. But I did it. Day by boring day.

Just think about what your goal is in life. Get help that you need. And much luck to you.

haha... i meant get that speech out of the way!

I'm feeling less overwhelmed about everything...I haven't been feeling well physically on top of emotionally feeling kind of strung out a bit so I think that has been a definite factor in my woah is me feeling. Its good to see that others have gone through so much yet succeeded. I have to remember that this doesn't define me and stop being a perfectionist it takes off stress.