Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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Itzjustme 01/18/2011

Hiiiiiiiii!

You know how its "normal" for ppl with bp to have racing thoughts...well today i was talking to my therapist about my thoughts. i have a few types of thoughts

1. the list: where i make a list over and over again in my head
2. conversation1: i talk to ppl but ppl i know and id have a conversation with them.
3. conversation2: ppl having a conversation with me or to each other
4. running thoughts: where i would just have endless thoughts.

the 3rd one is what she wants to know more about. i never talked about this before cuz i didnt want to sound crazy but ive been like that with the thoughts for a long timee..i tried to explain it wen i was in 14 to the school counselor but i just told her thoughts that go on forever and never talked about it til now.

do any of u guys go through this? any of it? or understand it?

i just dont want anymore meds

deleted_user 01/18/2011

I used to have conversations with myself when manic. Usually very repetitive ones; I sort of talked to myself, I'm embarrassed to admit. Very crazy.
It would be conversations I'd want to have in real life. Nutty, I know.
Does that answer your question?

Itzjustme 01/18/2011

yea it does its like the 2 example..thank u..and ur not crazy:)

Suninbloom 01/18/2011

My racing thoughts become obsessive thoughts until I find a solution to whatever I'm going on about. Then I go down the list to the next racing throught. I guess I am proud of the fact that I can take my racing thoughts one at a time.

deleted_user 01/18/2011

What I've learned about therapists is that they don't really know shit about the real stuff.
They are just nuzzling around for bon mots for some publication.
They are scared of what we really know.
Lighter afflicted people may gel with them but I don't need to.
I just need Neil

Itzjustme 01/18/2011

im learnig to do that with the 1st example type of thoughts...good for u for making ur thought smaller

deleted_user 01/18/2011

WHen I am manic boy my mind can go off about anything for any amount of time. If I am obsessing on something forget gettingmy mind off if it. I will have conversations with myself where I speak out loud for hours. For me it is trying to gain control of my thoughts, that one I haven't mastered quite yet but it is a work in progress

walkingthewhiteline 01/18/2011

My listing over and over in my head drains me the most. I'd rather deal with occasional panic attacks than a mind that NEVER turns off. (And I hate panic attacks!)

I get so overwhelmed with my listing of /what I need to do/want to do/can't do/should do/so on, this is what drives me bonkers the most!

Once I was so overwhelmed I wrote them all down-filling both side of a page. I showed my friend. I tried to explain to him, see this is what I am thinking about everyday-all day.

I thought it was my career that kept dates and events dancing in my head. Imagine how disappointed I am to still have the racing thoughts and no career or income. It sucks!

Tamara

deleted_user 01/18/2011

I'm a in a manic sort of way now and my thoughts are like an internal debate with myself and the responses I think others would give me on a infinite number of topics. It's hard to stay focused in a conversation or task. Each topic that comes to mind immediately branches off into other topics like a giant spiderweb.

Itzjustme 01/19/2011

yea its hard to stay focused with my thoughts going all over the place

deleted_user 01/19/2011

flight of ideas is very common with bipolar during manic phases. With my mania, I dont get the high that some people get. Im not what you'd call textbook bipolar. More rapid cycling. I do , however, have racing thoughts about things I can't even explain to myself like...what am I going to do today, I have too much to do, I cant handle such and such, i need to start this and that project, cleaning, etc. I talk to myself regardless if im in a manic phase so thats nothing new to me lol. I answer myself back too. I go from one extreme to the other through the day, although this last episode was mania for 2 months due to a med that my family doc prescribed in conjuction with another that threw me there. I get the anger, irritibility, outbursts, throwing, screaming, etc...no high or euphoria. you are quite normal with those thoughts while in mania.

Chanel22 01/19/2011

Yep It is normal, though meds should help with that. Also people with ADD/ADHD have that as well

deleted_user 01/19/2011

I will say that is typical for me unmedicated. My racing thoughts would sometimes send me in to anxiety. I would have thoughts what others were thinking of me and answer what they would say before they would say something(in my head of coarse). My meds have stopped that nightmare..whew

Itzjustme 01/19/2011

right now im only taking half of my 5mg of abilify

Itzjustme 01/19/2011

bump

olenka1 01/19/2011

I have numerous debates, arguments etc. in my head when I'm hypomanic. it drives me to distraction at times, but meds. have really helped with this.

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