It has taken a toll on my family because they are the ones in the waiting room of ICU, waiting by the phone for the nurse to call. It takes a huge toll. My family has had to wait two times. The second was more severe than the first. Luckily, I have a very supportive family. I hadn't told anyone about my being bipolar, and my sister says "I think you're bipolar". It nearly floored me. I think everyone is different. I have been extremely blessed to have wonder parents, two sisters, brother, nephew, niece, great nephew, and great niece.

When I was diagnosed, I was engaged. The hardest time of my life, the time when I needed someone the most, she wasnt there for me, she freaked out, didnt know how to handle it, sayed some very mean stuff to me like"I wonder if our babies would come out retarded from all the meds you take." Anyways she ended up breaking the wedding off 4 months prior to the wedding. Im better off without her anyway!

I totally feel you when you say you've put you're husband through hell. I haven't been married long, but we've been together for three years. I've known him for nine years. He has seen me at my very worst. He has pried various sharp objects out of my hand and then held my hand. He's always been there... even though I'm not sure as to why sometimes. For a very long time I was convinced my issues would run him off. I figure if he married me, he can handle me. I know he'll never leave for two reasons; 1- he is too lazy to go find someone else (haha) and 2- he is one of the last true believers that "until death do you part" means just that. His parents have been together for 38 years and I hold marriage in high esteem because my parents had a horrible marriage and divorced after 25 years!

our husbands seem to be very alike. i often feel like just leaving him though just for his sake. i cant imagine im making him as happy as he deserves. but at the end of the day i know i would never find a man like this one. thanks for your reply

Not a problem... sometimes the man in your life can play a big part on your mood. Sometimes you want to kill them and then sometimes you feel you'd die without them.