I don't have a single biggest srew-up, I have the whole collection.
Some screw-ups could be traced to BP, but not all of them. Mania was my big problem and depression has never been the cause, at least in my experience. Proper treatment has done me a world of good.

Oh I know what you mean, Sunshyne. I wish I had never started cutting but it's too late for that.

I have a collection as well ....lol

I don't think it matters the reason sweetie... Hopefully if you're unwell you seek medical attention
"To ere is human to forgive divine"
Learn from your mistakes and forgive yourself the same as you'd forgive anyone else... We are so very hard on ourselves... Big hug for you...x

Like suncloud, I have a collection too. Damn the day 30 years ago when I first put a cigarette in my mouth! I also damn the day my bulimia started.

I have done some really insane things because of mixed states. I would never have done those things otherwise. I don't feel comfortable going into detail.

Thankful for the right med.

HA !
A collection... An encyclopedia !

Starting with a manic / escalated psychotic episode

1. I have screwed up so many times I don't know what my biggest screw up is, probably dropping out of college when I was 18.
2. I was wild, seeking the wrong attention, running away, depressed in the mist.....I have made a lot of irrational decisions and honestly I couldn't tell you if it was because of my bipolar or my own stupidity either way I screwed up regardless.

Oh goodness there are too many things for me to list but not all of them are due to my schizoaffective (BP subtype) diagnosis.

i have the anti-answer: one of the BEST things that has come from a manic episode was meeting my husband 10 years ago. Were it not for my mania, I wouldn't be running around in a bikini flirting with every guy I met - some women too - and I met this shining eyed little wee thing, my now step-son - floating in the swimming pool on his dad's lap. The little one invited me to play, we had fun, I met his daddy, we fell in love and its been wonderful ever since - lol - on more days than not. When the mania stopped, I had to reintroduce myself to my husband and he STILL LIKED ME. A good story.

That's such a great story, SK. I think we need to sometimes try to find something good that came from our 'bad',

I dont if I have a biggest screw up but I have quite a few that have happened when I am angry and uncontrollable dur to depression adn anxiety. One being when I was mad at my mothers employer for fireing her so in the heat of the moment I told this woman off on FB which in the end humiliated my mother. I so regret this but I wasnt in my right mind and wanted avenge my mom.

I just don't think I can narrow it down to one screw up...there are so many. Yes, I believe my illness caused many of them but I have to be honest and say some were just bad decisions on my part due to being young or immature at the time. Thank goodness they are becoming less as I age.