So I haven't been around much. I still don't have internet. I've also been busy baby sitting my mom's boyfriends daughter, helping out my ex and other hobbies. Also sleeping a lot still or more like resting with out the actually sleep part.

I know some people will scold me for helping my ex out but I don't feel any danger from him for the time being. I am sympathetic to his position as I was there a few years ago and I remember how hard it is when you are starting to try to fix a messed up life. (Drug addiction, and other life screwing situations. In his case a record) Also for the time being I have realized that my feelings for him are changed. I don't feel any love other than as a friendship which is good. I haven't let him talk me into anything stupid all though he hasn't really asked for anything stupid either.

Best I can tell he is working really hard on him self to change his life. The future is still yet to be seen but I am proceeding with caution.

Also I think this is best thing for my children as my daughter has been asking about her father for a long time. My son also seems to have changed a bit too after spending a little time with his father. I think things were bothering him but he wasn't talking about it with me. He never talks about his feelings and talking with him is difficult as you have to drag words out of him.

A side from that life has been pretty good. I still struggle with all my sleep issues but I have been fairly stress free.

I love you all and hope every one has been doing well in my absence.