Praying for you.

Please dont feel this way!

God, have I felt how you feel. I wish simple words like "don't give up" and "it will get better" could help, but I know they don't. The only thing I can say is that the pain your'e feeling is real, its awful and real, and overwhelming, but you are alive. You are a living, breathing human being that deserves all the happiness in the world. If you take time to think about it, you will find that the reasons to hang on and continue to fight far outweigh the reasons telling you to give up. Tomorrow you can fret about your life, and your plans, and your future. Today I want you to watch tv, watch movies, if you are on a diet, blow it on ice cream and cookies. Read a book, call a friend to chat. Write in your journal if you have one. Take a nap. Take two naps. Snuggle under your covers and cry. Let out the pain. Give yourself permission to feel. Feel the pain but don't let it overwhelm you. You are a human being. You are allowed to feel bad. You are also allowed to heal and feel good. I am praying for you. I wish you the best. Be Well, and if that's not possible, be ok, and if that's not possible, be shitty with a smile :)

What Stony2018 said. I know how much a struggle this is for you. I am a partner of an undiagnosed sufferer. I cry so often because I can’t help and he doesn’t want any. So, I go to Therapy and read as much as I can about this disorder. One thing I know for sure is you are not alone. You are loved, you are important and in time things will improve. Right now maybe not but possibly tomorrow. I have also called the suicide hotline when my moment of despair and feeling like I don’t want to exist was too much. It helped. Just breathe and reach to those who are your supporters. Hugs.