See your baggage as "experience" and "life lessons" and allow it to work for you instead of against you and develope that which brings a positive focus into your life.

and another thing- I feel like I have baggage and just baggage. Tonight I was hanging out with this guy Kyle from high school. I hadn't see him in a long time and he has traveled and done a lot for himself.. and I was diagnosed summer after I graduated and it all went downhill from there. I didn't know what to say. I felt akward. :(

Thanks Shelly... I just feel like I haven't accomplished much. Maybe I'm just in a rut right now so I see it that way.

there is not a human alive who is not hauling around some kind of baggage bp or otherwise you are a unique individual like a fingerprint don't mesure yourself by what someone else has or can do

We all have baggage...part of being human. I agree with Shelly about the life lessons even though this illness takes away our optimism because of it being a brain chemistry thing. Hopefully you will get stable on your meds and be able to apply such optimism

I do understand how you feel. What I have come to realize over the many years I have suffered with this disorder is that I can accomplish many things but it will take me longer to do than most other people who do not have this disorder. I have learned to be patient and kind to myself because beating myself up only causes more harm.

I think it was in "acceptance" that I learned to see the good things in my life and not compare myself to others. We are all unique in our own right. I do remember being very hard on myself at your age because I had such high expectations for myself. I saw others excel where I could not, others accomplish things that I could not. I learned to stop comparing myself to them and find the things that I could do and accomplish them one at a time.

Now I can look back and be proud of how far I have come and where I am today. You will get there sweetie, be patient with yourself and good to you. You have a purpose in life and you will find it.

xo

thanks guys.... and now that I think about it.. playing guitar is a practice I have been working on for about a year and a half now and my songs are unique and wouldn't be the same if I hadn't gone through the journey that I have so far. And that's like everything I guess. Thank you.