Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
I realize it's been a while, lol sorry about that.
Had to leave all of a sudden for reasons. I've been avoiding all human contact because after a fall out, the one you all know as vii and I no longer speak. Another close friend's been silent with no given reason, and the others are preoccupied with other things. I didn't see the one on Easter, the girl I consider my closest friend right now is extremely busy with graduation things. She went from rambling about quantum physics and Tool with me all evening to not reading my messages, which hurt.
I'm not consistently social to begin with, but if I don't have my best friends, I don't really want anyone. I'm so deluded frankly that I don't notice or care that I have no one to talk to until I become seriously suicidal. Sleeping aids have helped me dodge a few bullets in recent times, and I'm grateful to have them. But... I guess I can't wait on them eh? I have people I should be checking up on that I left, I'm working on not wallowing in what was (or rather temporarily isn't) and not obeying my pattern-ocd tendency to put everything and everyone else on hold until I've gotten just one thing sorted out. It's fundamentally flawed because most of the time the "thing" or personal relations issue isn't even within my control to fix.
I'm off Lamictal, that shit sucked. xD Not only did it make me feel zombie-fied and catatonic, I swear it made things worse, even with the clarity of objectivity that hindsight provides. Some variable or another's thrown me (well, half-heartedly tossed if I'm being honest) into mania, it's like looking at the world through virgin eyes that are bewildered and impressed by everything. It isn't helping my situation a lot, but is still preferable to... well, pretty much everything else at this point, lol.
How is everyone?
What's up?
Had to leave all of a sudden for reasons. I've been avoiding all human contact because after a fall out, the one you all know as vii and I no longer speak. Another close friend's been silent with no given reason, and the others are preoccupied with other things. I didn't see the one on Easter, the girl I consider my closest friend right now is extremely busy with graduation things. She went from rambling about quantum physics and Tool with me all evening to not reading my messages, which hurt.
I'm not consistently social to begin with, but if I don't have my best friends, I don't really want anyone. I'm so deluded frankly that I don't notice or care that I have no one to talk to until I become seriously suicidal. Sleeping aids have helped me dodge a few bullets in recent times, and I'm grateful to have them. But... I guess I can't wait on them eh? I have people I should be checking up on that I left, I'm working on not wallowing in what was (or rather temporarily isn't) and not obeying my pattern-ocd tendency to put everything and everyone else on hold until I've gotten just one thing sorted out. It's fundamentally flawed because most of the time the "thing" or personal relations issue isn't even within my control to fix.
I'm off Lamictal, that shit sucked. xD Not only did it make me feel zombie-fied and catatonic, I swear it made things worse, even with the clarity of objectivity that hindsight provides. Some variable or another's thrown me (well, half-heartedly tossed if I'm being honest) into mania, it's like looking at the world through virgin eyes that are bewildered and impressed by everything. It isn't helping my situation a lot, but is still preferable to... well, pretty much everything else at this point, lol.
How is everyone?
What's up?
If you wanna come down, just head the parachute overhead and I'll shoot a tranquilizer into it! jk
We're all here. Yep, just us chickens. And some night owls, and last night I saw a buzzard.
So, what are you up to Today?
The usual up and down here, online and off, offend and apologize - lol for me, somethings are the same shit, different day : )
I read somewhere this week - falling on your face, is still moving forward LOL
Welcome back! Glad you feel better, and not worse ...
I'm ordering supplies right now to make candles and getting ready to plant an herb garden. My daughter and I spent this past weekend at a great festival with lots of music and nature walks. I fight sadness lots of days but overall am doing fairly well.