Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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JennS 09/27/2009

I have had it. I have posted here before for being suicidal. Now I have sunk to a new low. I am seriously considering committing a murder suicide involving my family. THIS IS NOT A JOKE!!! I have had it with life for a long time but I have had it with my family, too. My husband is ill tempered and whiny. My son is stubborn and destroys just about everything in his path. My son is never going to be a contributing member of society! He's just going to be a drain! These people need to die and so do I! I have tried to supress it but I have an extremely darkside. It is now taking over. I don't think anything can fix this. The only thing that can be done is to lock me up forever or kill me. The later option sounds better.

My plan was to stangle my husband and son to death then go out and get some rat poison and eat it. It have fantased about killing my family and myself for months now because they were pissing me off. Now I've reached my limit with them and I feel I can do this.
Again, THIS IS NOT A JOKE!

deleted_user 09/28/2009

I really think you should go to the nearest hositpal. I'm worried.. I hope you don't do this, Just call 911 and tell then you feel so horrilbe, It sounds like you need a med change. I hope you are ok

deleted_user 09/28/2009

Jen,
Call someone and get some help. You are not thinking clearly and you need to call a friend or talk to me or what ever it takes to make you stop thinking of these things. Do not act on this. Are you still there. I am sorry no one replied to this. If this was a joke it is not funny....write back!!!!

deleted_user 09/28/2009

Yeah you definetely need to get to the hospital ASAP. Tell them what your thinking. They can't share it with your family so don't worry your son will be able to grow up never knowing this happened. It's safe to get help. Please PLEASE get help.

Unwell 09/28/2009

my God Jenn. please go to the hospital. i believe what you're saying, it's very scary.

go to the hospital. they'll be able to help you. are you seeing a therapist? if not, get one ok?

know that we're all here for you too. please dont leave us hanging. talk to us.

ZanyBeeper 09/28/2009

Are you on an anti-psychotic?? Sounds like you need one and therapy. Do you do therapy?

deleted_user 09/28/2009

please, please go to the hospital. You need something different then what your taking cause evidently its not taking the intrusive thoughts away. I have had tons of intrusive thoughts so do not fel alone. You really do not want to kill your family you just want the pain to go away. Please go and get help and all will be better soon. Please do not do anything to your family. Go get help ASAP!

deleted_user 09/28/2009

Jenn is better today. here is her post....

I spoke to someone last night. I feel better now. I would not kill my husband, my son or anybody. They are very hard to deal with. I'm just very tired and stressed but they don't seem to see that. I'm ashamed that I considered committing such a crime. I was going to go to the hospital but they don't have good psych wards here. They treat you like cattle. The only thing we have left is the state mental hospital. That is just a little better than prison. I have an appt. with my pdoc soon and will tell here about all this. Thank you for your replies.

Good for you Jenn

deleted_user 09/28/2009

Soalar-thanks for posting what jen posted. I was very worried about her and her family when I saw that! I hope you can get some help Jen!! Thinking of you, and please know you can message me any time you need to talk

deleted_user 09/28/2009

I am sorry to hear that you are going through this. Is there anyway that you can get some help. I know exactly how you feel, mine was going to be draino, but I hung in there, because you see, Feelings are like the wheather, it may be raining today, but tomorrow there is sunshine. It takes a lot of work, and for me the help of my doctor's. I also go to Alanon for help, because they teach me how to deal with people and their imperfections', that is very important. It sounds like you have a lot on you and may have fallen down into what I call the rabbits' hole but I promise you with a good doctor and maybe some medication there is a way out. I got off my med's for a few days because I forgot to take them, again another part of my dis-ease, and I wanted to drink draino, so I really do know how you feel. But killing and dieing is not the answer. I was once told, if you use a gun to get out of this world, what are you going to use to get out of the next. And I find that to be true.
I hope this finds you and your family well, and seeking some kind of professional help. Because there is help out there but you have to pick up the phone and call and ask for it. And even if you hit one wall, do not stop, go for another one. Keep on Keepin on. May God Bless,
Kase

deleted_user 09/28/2009

Jenn, please get help immediately!

deleted_user 09/29/2009

Turn yourself in to the authorities NOW so you can get some help. If you are planning a murder suicide it is a criminal act as you know. You MUST stop yourself. Call the police IMMEDIATELY. They will take care of you and give you proper care and keep your family safe until this passes. Do NOT act on your rage. PLEASE call the cops. NOW.

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