I am ashamed of myself for losing yet another job. I talked to my old boss yesterday. His daughter was cutting my hair last month when I had that bizarre migraine. I apparently said things that were embarrassing to myself, him AND his family. He won't tell me what I said and I honestly do not have much memory from most of that whole DAY. I remember bits and pieces only. My old boss was also someone that I considered a close friend. Just the thought that I hurt someone, even though I wasn't in control of myself, is very distressing. I am feeling extreme anxiety over it...on top of the anxiety of losing yet ANOTHER job. I am pretty much a complete mess. I wish God would come and take me. I don't want to be here anymore. I am an embarrassment to myself and everyone around me. Also, my mother keeps saying things like "I think you are purposely losing jobs" and "what was it that you couldn't understand about that job" and "I don't understand why you can't learn anything anymore". And my whole family is blaming my problems on the meds that I am on. To be honest, I feel like taking my clothes and a few personal things and leaving this area. My mother is here, but I don't see her much because of her comments. I just want to drop off from EVERYONES radar. Gas up my car and go. I don't think I want to do this shit anymore. I want to leave but I don't know what I would do or where I would go?????