Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
So...today I got my results from the Neuropsych testing that I had back in late March. I have been diagnosed with the following: "prominent difficulties in areas involving visual memory, alternating visual attention". I basically have cognitive issues...which totally explains the last three jobs that I have had trouble with. They also said that when I am exposed to a high stress environment where these cognitive skills are required, I become stressed and anxious, which in turn makes the cognitive deficit worse. It is like a snowball effect. I am going to have neuro cognitive behavioral counseling. On one hand, it is good to know that there is a reason behind all of this. On the other, I feel like I have been "labeled". I feel like a retard. Defective. Stupid. My mother acted like I was making things up. She STILL doesn't "get it".
My "birthday" is tomorrow. I don't want to acknowledge it, let alone celebrate it. I am "supposed" to go to mother's house for dinner tomorrow. I don't want to. Today she told me that she is "sad for me"...because I don't own anything of value. What aHORRIBLE thing to say to your daughter. I have heard this kind of BS From my father.
I have been cutting my leg tonight. I hate myself and my life.
My "birthday" is tomorrow. I don't want to acknowledge it, let alone celebrate it. I am "supposed" to go to mother's house for dinner tomorrow. I don't want to. Today she told me that she is "sad for me"...because I don't own anything of value. What aHORRIBLE thing to say to your daughter. I have heard this kind of BS From my father.
I have been cutting my leg tonight. I hate myself and my life.
You don't need to slap ugly labels on yourself because no one else is. There is no standard and no perfect. The only thing to ask of yourself is to do your best. Don't be an over-achiever and run yourself ragged trying to attain some type of perfection and don't accept laziness or half-hearted efforts. Just do your best.
What an odd thing for your mom to say about your possessions. My mom says insensitive things all the time too. I finally realized that she will not be the loving and supportive mom that I crave so I have others who fill that need. My mom is still my mom but she's not a lifeline.
Take good care of yourself.
Concentrate on YOU and what you need to feel better.
People don't "get it", we beepers go through this all of the time, unfortunately. Try not to dwell on it...reach for the positive. Things are looking up for you.