It may be a mixed state... Depression and hypomania mixed... I have been in them when I was first diagnosed

I would talk with your psychiatrist... The right med combo will help with some coping tools.... Big hug.... I know that they're miserable...xo

Yea I makes me not wanna get up in the morning and to be afraid to be around people for fear of lashing out

I think it’s interesting how some with bipolar have such hot tempers or anger issues. I really only ever get mad at kids for being whiny and annoying. I’m very even tempered otherwise.
I agree with Jan you may be experiencing mania

I’ve always been like this though

Some people will have anger management issues as well as bipolar. What are the episodes you mention?

Do you only have the anger problem at specific time? I assume you've been diagnosed and are on meds.

I am diagnosed but I’m off meds and the episode are I’ll be extremely angry and sad at the same time and I lash out on people for no reason

I don't think too many people do well off of meds Michenero.... What we have is a chemical imbalance and the meds help to curb that

It won't just go away.... ..I know that we all wish that it would but unfortunately it doesn't however it is treatable and there's good treatment.... xo

I'm new here. Just posted about this same thing today. It is a horrible way to feel....so full of agitation and hatred (at least for me). I am a rapid cycler and experience these situations someone frequently. They do a real number on my self esteem and my marriage. Even if I don't express the anger, my family can feel it and it makes me feel like such a failure which leads to my thinking that they'd be better off without me. And of course, that line of thinking leads me down a dark path. May I ask what meds you're on? Sorry if that's not allowed....it's my first day.

I used to take abilify but I stopped my meds last year I also had to take cojenten and trazadone I didn’t like the numb feeling it gave me

I don't know that a mood disorder will come under control without treatment Michener.... xo

If there was a way to take the medication and not feel numb I would do it in a heart beat plus o just got some stressful news that someone at my work got tested positive and since then it’s been worse I’ve been shutting people out and basically having panic attacks because I’m so scared

I'm so sorry.... Big hug..... How long ago was he/she tested positive?.... Are you isolating now?

It can take quite some time to find the right med or cocktail as well as the right dosage

If you see on here so many of us are on different meds and different doses

I don't take Lithium now however when I did I really felt NO ill effects at all

Your pdoc doesn't want you numb sweetie.... He/she wants your illness under control and we do have a treatable illness

Deep breaths.... I would do some grounding techniques for the panic...

Sit in your favourte room and start to describe everything in it out loud... Talk it.... Describe all of the colours, materials, art... Your favourite pieces.... Describe all these things out loud and in a short amount of time the panic should subside

If you've been feeling extra anxious get out some crayons or coloured pencils and colour ... This can also help with anxiety.... Big hug....xo

Because you have past issues that you havent dealt with or gotten over. You have to let these things go to have a bright future.