Aww Deb you break my heart! I sooo know how you feel! For right now right this second BREATH!!!!!!!!!! Try to slow down, i know thats hard for you right now, but you must slow your brain down. Meditation?? That might help. Mon. 9AM start calling your pdoc again, you need to see him, i know you know that. I think goin into the hospital for a few days might be a great idea, BUT not if its really gonna stress you out over the cost. GAWD i wanna help you, i just dont know how!
Hang in there, dont give up hope!!
MUCH love & MANY hugs
dee

tats, do you have an anti psychotic that works? wipes your brain out, so you get production without the thinking, kind of effect?

klonopin wont help if the thoughts are layering at this point. at least it doesnt for me...

That thing about the lawn mower and grass - my past therapist used to call impending doom. Worse than anxiety for me...borderlining paranoia. I think the calls into the pdoc are definitely in order...keep on it, the squeaky wheel is the one that gets noticed, that' for sure.

Until then, one moment and breath at a time.

Maybe Dee is right...maybe the hospital? Or at least a crisis line?

Good luck, sweetie. xxoo

When you call your pdoc, are you talking to a person? I would INSIST on an appointment ASAP. Heck with a return call. Just go see the jerk, and when you're there, tell him you were/are having a crisis, and ask why no one bothered to return calls. Is it possible to go elsewhere? I can't remember what you told me about that.

You need to be seen SOON. It would be great if a simple med adjustment would help everything! Don't give up trying tomorrow till you get an appointment.

xoxo. {{{{{HUGS}}}}}

Nutter, I take abilify and have taken more than what is ordered to try and break this massive "BRAIN GLITCH" I'm having.......sigh

Yes Kim, I am leaving messages and even talked to one of the receptionists and told her that I NEEDED HELP! She said she would tell the pdoc right away, that if I remember correctly was back on wednesday of last week.....then I called the office all day thur and fri and kept getting the answering machine and I left numerous messages, what a fucked up sititation......huge sigh

I feel like I am so part of the faulty mental health system right now it ain't funny!!!!!! I want to kick my fn pdoc ass right now.

twiluv, impending doom......yep I am so feeling that right now. Gotta be the worst feeling in the world right now. I so want to take a match to this house and burn it to the ground.......this house overwhelms me so much, I need to seriously think about selling and getting something more manageable but I collect SSDI and nobody will give me a loan for another home, and renting would so be an option right now.....fuck now I'm babbling sorry....sigh

tats, have you ever tried risperdal? i take .5 mg and i swear by it for a brain eraser, i use it prn even. i stock pile the stuff just in case i couldnt get it for a while. when i take it, the brain stops thinking about mostly everything but what i can do at that moment. if it stopped doing the trick, id try thorazine.

Nutter all I have is some seroquel.......no risperdal.....sigh

Ya think I should take one.....the agitation is making me think and wish horrible things for myself and my family!!!

I know this may sound repeatitive but a thought is just a thought. It is what it is. Make a list and just do a few of the things if you must and stop there. You don't have to act on your action urges. You don't have to be perfect with your housecleaning. Is it harmful to let some of it go? No it isn't. A thought is just a thought..

Learning that in dbt really has helped me put things in better perspective.

so sorry to hear what your going through.((((HUGS)))). cant say i can relate,but i can relate to the incessant worrying,for that klonopin does help me. you definitely need a pdoc visit.i just keep calling when that happens until i get a live person,hate that vm. you need meds tweaked and they are the only one to do it.God Bless you and give you some comfort.more hugs and xxxxx.
gina

Taking more Abilify that what you are prescribed might only add to your problems. I don't know what constitutes an 'overdose' of the stuff, but one of the symptoms of that is 'agitation'.

How you're feeling sounds absolutely dreadful!!!!

I don't know much about hitting ERs. I know from reading here that you probably won't be admitted (committed?) unless you are a threat to yourself or to others.

But what if you just feel like shit in the way that you do now? Would they give you anything to help you settle down?

Or would even doing just that cost way too much money?

Bastard doctor!!!!! (If he got your messages.)
When you next see him, ask him if he has an emergency number that he is willing to give you.

I don't have one for my doctor, but I've heard some people mention on here that they do.

Once I was having some really unacceptable symptoms, so when I called the doctor's office, I told them that I really needed to see him right away and they worked me into the schedule. I think you should see if you can get to SEE your Pdoc, rather than just talk to him on the phone!!

If I was feeling like you do, I'd take enough Seroquel to knock my ass out.
I did that once when I was feeling too horrible to bear it any longer. Took enough Seroquel to make me sleep for the rest of the day and all of the night. I didn't take TONS more. Maybe 50 or 100mg more than my usual dose.
When I told the doctor I did it, he said I did the right thing. That the brain resets while we sleep.

Good luck to you. Hot bath? Concentrate on your breathing? Soft music?
None of that stuff ever helps me, but I see other recommend it from time to time.
I sure hope you feel better soon!! Your symptoms sound ghastly!!! (((((Hugs)))))