wow, so sorry you are feeling like this, have you called your pdoc? maybe s/he can do something for you, in the meantime, take deep breaths and try to relax

I don't have a Pdoc ...I don't have insurance. ...........I just feel so scared :(

My keyboard is "flippy"--I just wrote something and deleted it by accident.
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Perhaps it might be good if someone could stay with you during your bad time. If you need to go to the hospital, go, but if you think that you can hold on with the help of a friend who can temporarily stay with you, then do that. Then, call the local Mental Health Clinic and see if they can see you before the holidays.
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If you can have that friend stay with you and if you are strong enough to hold on, I would spend the weekend with comforting things like hot scented baths, warm candles, soft music, non-caffinated hot tea, a small snack of cookies, chocolate, fruit (strawberries are good)-little stuff like that--reading the Bible if you like it-stuff like Psalm 23 and 91. (Avoid scriptures that are negative in nature).

LOTS OF ENYA
LOTS OF LOREENA MCKENNITT
LOTS OF ANNIE LENNOX

Get a friend to pick out heart warming, positive movies to watch. The weekend should be filled with soft rituals and routines which are geared towards relaxation and enjoyment. Busying stuff like coloring pages that depict scenes from modern painters (which can be googled and printed from the net), crochet, sewing, simple crafts) will help pass the time and make you feel better.

The focus is mainly on comforting and soothing the self.
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Later down the road, you and the therapist can try and focus in on the messages that the subconscious is sending through the voices. Some folks get medicine to quell some of the symptoms and then learn to talk their voices DOWN. Other folks try figure out the traumatic issues of their childhood and do theraputic work on those issues. Some people do both.........

I have had many friends and acquaintences with schitzo or schizophrenia. Sometimes, the hearing of voices can start from a PTSD trigger. Perhaps you could research the PTSD aspects of hearing voices when you feel up to it...

In any case, do not give up.

Mad Love,
CATE

PS: This computer...grr..I almost lost my post!! :(

If you can, put on some soft music and that will make it go away. Don't worry whatever it is,can be treated and made to go away. If you don't have insurance then go to the emergency room they can't refuse you treatment and then you can possibly qualify for free care. If you need me I'm right here,I will chat with you too if you need it.

Thanks so much everyone for responding... I don't want to go to the ER for fear of being put into a psych ward :( I really do not want to re experience that again :(

No thanks needed,just do your best and try to think of something good in your life no matter how small and focus on that.

It's possibly the stress or OCD.

I don't think if you have schizophrenia you get terriefied you might have it. You are not aware that your thoughts are disordered.

if it persists, then you will need to see a doctor, there is no other way of trying to resolve it.

oh, and if you hear these things as you are actually going to sleep chances are it's a hypnagogic hallucination - it's normal for anyone. It's not a mental illness.

I am so sorry you're feeling like this. I have these randomn panic attacks in the middle of the night where i hear things or feel that someone is there watching me. I can completely empathize with you. Usually, I sleep with the light on or ask my husband to wake up and hold me. Other than that... the only thing that works is that the noises and the odd feelings will abate. I have a slight fear of sleeping from these stupid oddities. I still have yet to talk to my pdoc about it. I don't know if it's psychosis, hallucinations, or what. My heart goes out to you. Also, I try distracting myself by thinking what I have to do when I wake up or I go through a beloved memory or something similiar to distract myself from the fear, hallucinations, whatever. I wish the best for you. Write me whenever you're feeling like this and I would be happy to talk with you about it or chat about anything. I'm here for you...

i can't believe you don't have insurance -- are you being denied coverage? you are entitled to help. it must be very scary being where you are, but the more you know ... well, the more power you have to do something about it.

also - are you speaking to others who are going through the same kind of experience?

sending "pink hugs" through the digital wasteland ...

Lots of people don't have insurance, including myself.

Worrying about the noises will make them worse. I've had this happen to me quite often and it always seems to be due to anxiety.
Try your best to make yourself calm. Listen to music, have a bath, have something to eat, watch television. Anything you can do to keep yourself calm will help. This will pass.

So sorry you are feeling so bad. I have PTSD, too and have also had hallucinations (visual) when walking around but have terrifying visions at night when trying to go to sleep (sleep often eludes me). What you are experiencing could be just part of bipolar disorder (Bipolar I have had hallucinations at some point to be diagnosed as type I) The other people's suggestions to go to your Mental Health Center in your county is the best idea, they should have a crisis intervention ( I would recommend that for sooner help). My higher power is always a huge comfort to me. If you have one, ask for his guidance.........Joy

You say that you hear the voices from outside your head. It is my understanding that with schizophrenia that you hear the voices inside your head. You may have some other treatable anxiety disorder. Do you have any medication you can take like klonopin or any antipsychotics? That would help. You can also talk to someone on a hotline for tips if it continues and freaks you out in the middle of the night. As long as you aren't a harm to yourself or others they won't insist that you go into the hospital. I agree with all the other folks that have suggested self soothing gestures, music and food and comforting yourself to get through the weekend. Do see someone for a med tweak on Monday though even if you don't have insurance you can get it for free at places suggested on the hotline that are in the community for people without insurance and need immediate care. In Texas we have Emergency Psych Services they hand out meds and don't put you in the hospital unless you are going to harm yourself or others.