I'm a writer and especially a poet. I wrote a poem a few months back that I'd like to share.

Having Mixed Bipolar Episodes

Having mixed bipolar episodes is terrible
One minute I'm climbing Mt. Everest in a t-shirt and shorts
The next I can't walk to the kitchen
Now I'm the happiest man who ever lived
Now I'm the lowest wretch who ever lived
I need to laugh, I need to cry
I have no control over this
Someone else is programming me
I ride the ride, desperately hanging on
From the highest of highs to the lowest of lows
I'm so happy I burst into tears
I'm so sad I laugh until it hurts
Only my medicines make this bearable
They turn the monster roller coaster into the kiddie version
Please God, let me get off this thing and onto something else
I never know when I'll feel happy or sad
Hopefully I'll feel a little of each, like most people
Not these wild swings, please not these wild swings
I'm an intelligent man but this hurts
Having mania doesn't make me creative, I'm creative anyway
Having depresion doesn't make me feel deeply, I do anyway
The last thing I want is for people to romanticize either
Sometimes my world is painted in shades of charcoal and midnight
Other times it's painted in bright neon hues
Both palettes hurt my eyes and my brain
My brain hurts, my soul hurts, my heart hurts
No matter whether I'm overjoyed or melancholy they hurt