Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

8,893 Members
129,609 Posts
0 Online
Mental Health
/ Bipolar Disorder Support Group

A Dream Deferred Once More

Stony2018
Stony2018

I haven’t been in college since 2009. For the past 4 years I have been trying to go back. Something always got in the way, financial trouble, flare ups of my mental illness, other life circumstances. In the last few months, I finally had what I needed to go back to school.          


I was able to pay back my school the money I owed them, I applied for financial aid to pay for my classes, and I am feeling emotionally stable enough to handle the stress of college.              


Spring 2019 semester starts on January 25th. I did everything I had to do to get back to school. Unfortunately, someone at TAP messes up my financial aid. Because of their mistake my financial aid is taking a long time to process and most likely won’t be ready in time. I don’t know where I can come up with the $530 I need to pay for my classes, plus the money I need for textbooks, metrocards, ect 


I’m going to have to drop my classes, and try again in September. I’m really upset. I really wanted to go back this semester. I’ve been working so hard. I was starting to feel like I was having progress in my life. That things were coming together for me. Now I have to wait 6 more months and try again. I feel hurt and disappointed. I’m beginning to feel like I’m never going to make it back to college. 

Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
I'm so sorry that you've had this disappointment..... Can you sit down with whoever handles this at the school to discuss it?

Big hug.....xo
Stony2018
Stony2018
Thanx SunCloud. Talking with officials at my school would do nothing. The people who messed up my financial aid work at TAP, a type of government financial aid. My school had nothing to do with it. I could try to set up a payment plan, but I have been looking for a job for months. No job can accommodate my class schedule. I’m still looking, but it’s probably not going to happen.
OlderCPer
OlderCPer
Okay, so you can't afford the full load, can you afford 1 class now to get yourself started until the Financial Aid gets sorted out, that way you're started back to school, you have time to find a job, and your not just sitting and feeling let down and discouraged until next Semester?

Sometimes you have to look for a solution in the "mess" that works until you find the "fix".
Stony2018
Stony2018
Thanx OlderC, I don’t have any money. One class would be about $500 - $600 dollars. I was depending on financial aid because I can’t afford classes on my own. The financial aid I receive won’t cover a part time course load, I have to be full time. But you gave me an idea, I will do some research and see if there is part time course load financial aid available. Thank you.
mlr0853
mlr0853
I go to a state run college....they will match the price of amazon books in the bookstore. this is another place you can get books https://www.cheapesttextbooks.com/

Please Don't Give Up!
Stony2018
Stony2018
Thanx mlr, I will definitely check out that website, because affordable textbooks are always a great resource! Lol. It’s not just textbooks though, it’s tuition, other school supplies, money for lunch ect. I was expecting my tuition to be fully covered, and a refund check that would enable me to buy the basic necessities that every college student needs. School is starting in a week and my financial aid is still processing. I don’t have a dime. I even started a Go Fund Me to help pay for college needs, but no one has donated. I’m looking for a job, I have been looking for months, but I haven’t been able to find one. I’ve even linked up with Temp agencies. Squat, nothing, zilch. That’s what I’ve got for my efforts. I’m pissed, I’m upset, and I’m just exhausted.
mlr0853
mlr0853
Have you spoken to an academic counselor to find out if there is a way to attend while your loan is being processed...or even the Dean?

Sometimes colleges have part-time jobs???

Last semester I took 2 classes, I'm 65, I had to leave Again due to life. I lost myself in a "job" for 27years and never finished my degree....senior sign up is 1/23, and I'll be inline.

Please Don't Give Up....
OlderCPer
OlderCPer
Care.com is a decent way to find work to fit around a complicated schedule, you can sign up to clean houses, run errands, etc. You set your hourly rate, when you can work, and you choose the jobs you want to take.

Just an option to check out....
Stony2018
Stony2018
I want to thank everyone for the support and advice. There simply isnt anything I could do to get the money on time, and payment plans are not a feasible option for me. There’s nothing I can do, I dropped my classes, I will have to try again in September. Thank you again. I will eventually be ok. I’ve been listening to emo songs and crying and forcing myself not to emotionally eat. I’m grieving. I’m just going to let myself grieve, and figure out what I’m going to do afterwards. Goodnight everyone.
Posts You May Be Interested In
  • confessionsofaqueen

    Love is Bittersweet

    Posted by: confessionsofaqueen
    Last Reply: hasty_05
    2
    Some things we don't talk about, we breathe them... Some things cannot be explained, but rather experienced. Some of the most healing moments arise when given the memory, acknowledging the love.One cannot go back in time; we move forward, and we carry the love we shared. No one but ourselves has the power to do so, or the permission to do so, but ourselves.So live life with your faith and...
  • Mathieu-Beaulieu

    Been feeling down lately

    Posted by: Mathieu-Beaulieu
    Last Reply: SunCloudJD
    1
    I've been feeling  like I don't matter  my wife the other day instead of telling me she was having a pain day  when I went to have sex with her  she tell me afterwards that she having pain day due to her fribromyalgia  and making feel like shit afterward saying  she has a list of things from past 9 years of thing for me to do  and is always  adding  more and more to this list  and talk...