It's Bipolar.
Call your doc on Monday before it spirals downward.

I'm afraid to call and let him know. I am so tired but can't sleep. I'm hiding in the bedroom from my kids so they don't have to see me like this.

I'm so f'n tired of having to push myself though. I'm debating sedating myself with my klonopin until I do fall asleep. If I don't wake up, oh well.

Hun, this to will pass. Our moods change like the blowing wind. I hope you feel better soon. Please seek help, don't do anything to hurt yourself. If you need to go to the hospital, call a friend to come stay with you. We are here for you.

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I get the kids to come read to me. I just let them curl up on the couch with me and we go through stories. No chores, nothing to think about for about 30 minutes. Just listening to them helps me get a bit above the funk...then I get a goal...I hate when that depression hits. You do need to let your doc know so that they can adjust the meds or do a different route? Are you in therapy? What about something you enjoy normally? Me, it is crocheting, making a lap blanket for my grandma who was diagnosed with dementia recently. I know that you do hate hearing this, but it will pass...it is all a cycle, like abuse is a cycle, you have the honeymoon, the silent, then the kaboom..BP we have a cycle too, the ups, the down, the crash...you do have to push, don't give in, then you give up..and where does that leave you and the kids? Keep focused...my goal is to beat this...hang in there!

I've been through the ups and downs so many times that I accept them. I know that what goes up will eventually come down. Since we are BP, it works the other way also-what goes down will eventually go up again.

I was telling my husband that when I'm up I'm more anxious because I know the down is just around the corner. The down jumped me yesterday, so I crawled into bed to weather the storm. I won't stay here until it leaves, but I will allow myself more TV time in bed without feeling guilty about other things I could be doing. I also have intense emotions when mother nature visits. Taking meds. are a waste. So my husband stocked up on chocolate-really works and chips&dip.

I completely understand how painful it is to bounce down over night, but it will pass-it will pass. Tell yourself that please. I also try to do as much as possible to take my mind off of it even it it's watching a silly movie or finally settling down to do sewing, polishing, and other little tasks.

Sometimes I'm at a level where I can't do anything even get on line so I just sit or lay and wait. I know now that as hopeless as I may feel it will turn around. As I've said I've been up and down so many times I know deep down it will evenutally pass. I even notify my husband if I down to the point that I might hurt myself. He knows what to make sure is put out of my sight. I'm not an overdoser just a cutter andd I don't use knives. I like the old fashion coat hangers and paperclips. I haven't cut in a while though.

me too

I'm in therapy, I was just at the pdoc and he wants me to stop my prozac and start on zoloft. I just can't come up with anything I enjoy, my head feels funny, headache and sick to my stomach. I feel like Im being poisoned by these freakin meds and am scared to death to let them change anything. I really feel like they are poisoning me.

I cant enjoy anthing for long either. I tried word find puzzle, internet. I just sleep the day away or zone out on tv. I'm on prozac too.

I hope you feel better soon, just becareful about keeping yourself in your room. I tried that once and ended up staying in my room for 7 months straight! So please becareful. I had myself convinced my bedroom was my "safe spot" and never left it.

I greatly appreciate you guys. I'm trying real hard to take in what everyone is saying. Things just aren't making sense to me right now. It doesn't feel like it'll pass ya know?

I keep thinking I did something wrong to make myself feel this way.