I have my days, but for the most part I'm pretty indifferent about everything.

Sorry you're dealing with this. Maybe try calling your pdoc about it?

I did better on lamictal than I'm doing on geodon. At my next appt I'm going to ask about upping my dose since I'm on the lowest right now.

Are you on a new med? How long have you been taking what you're on? I know they say give it two weeks but I think you really need two months to see if it's going to work.

I'm on lamictal and seroquel and I am supposed to take celexa but haven't felt like dropping off the prescription at wal-mart so i suppose this is my own fault. Im gonna bring a book to work and try to keep occupied i suppose.

Lamictal worked really well for me. I was on a pretty low dose because when we upped it I got bad hand tremors. The only reason I switched to geodon was because I was stalled in losing weight and was afraid that was due to lamictal.

Yeah get the script and see how you do on all your meds, it might just be that missing thing you need.

When I need to keep my mind occupied or distracted I write. I'm no great writer but I find that it keeps my mind busy. And heck I can write my own stories so they turn out how I want them to!

I was worse off on meds than I was off of them......my problems come from situational and I am seriously better off of them but of course I learned my triggers, I take measures to stave off mania and depression and I mean this took years to figure out too. Anyway I recommend counseling or DBT or CBT and it helped me alot. I would not advise someone to go off meds however if it is gonna make them sicker. With me it made me better.

Personally I'm terrified of starting on meds. I have pain, physical and emotional along with the ups and downs but never so down as this last year that forced me to ask to see a pdoc.

I guess I'm fortunate to have the luxury of waiting to decide what's in my best long term interest. I await an MRI of my brain.

For now I will stick with this flippant yet poignant quote to live by;

"If you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." Marilyn Monroe

I re-live every single day of my time that I was in my home-town.....not a day goes by when I don't ask

"What is wrong with me and why am I here?"

That's 24/7, 365 per year, including leap years

It took me a couple of years to find the right med combo, it was a horrible period of trial and many errors. Lots of pain involved. But now I'm finally on the right meds I rarely feel the pain. It's great.

I feel for you, I know what you're going through. I'd say drop off that script for Celexa and see what it does for you. I wish it was easy to find the right med combo, but you gotta know - there is Hope!
Big Hugs

Are you trying anything else to improve or just meds?

Meds give me stability, but I had to removed or change, painful memories and thoughts.... Habits that always sabotage me....

Not pain but guilt..for the things Ive done before meds..Working on that wiht therapist..do ya have one? Might help?

same here. My meds help but not the ultimate cure.

As far as pain goes....do you mean the mental pain and confusion...and frustrations associated with that...or do you mean actual physical pain. Just so I know...of course you can easily be having both.
Such are the vast frond-like reach of the side effects...it could take a while to acknowledge fully that you were feeling side-effects of a greater range than originally thought.

For me foe a long while it was blurry , numb, underwater feelings and the world around was chattery but distant.

Things change when you don't expect them to....but that's dependent on how your life stress changes too.

Keep on going and I hope you feel better and better sooner.