Try not to have everything hinge on school. If you fail you can try again when you are better. Do you feel like you need to go to a hospital? It sounds like you may want to consider it.

I'm in the same boat you're in. I've been like this for almost 2 weeks. I feel ya. Hang in there and I'm trying to do the same.

I don't want to go to the hospital , i just want my mind to stop racing and stop grinding my teeth. and hopefull y sleep tonight.

Well at least you can take heart to the fact that your wanting to do well in school means you have some will to live underneath it all.
Keep focusing on what gives you comfort.
I hope you can sleep tonight. Do you have anything you can take to stop the grinding? IE some tranquilizers to stop the racing thoughts and the tension?

I agree with Zsa - try not hinge everything on school/work - the immense pressure you put on yourself can set up for failure.

Also, I can understand that you don't want to go to the hospital, but can you see your pdoc? Perhaps a medication adjustment?

I don't know what you're getting in the way of treatment, but I don't think it's enough. Either that, or else you are under too much stress, between school, work, and life. Any chance of lightening your load?
I hope that keep all the suicidal stuff at bay!!!!
Your illness is what's wrong with you. That's what's making everything so hard. So that's the part of your life that you need to battle!!! I think a med change might be your best bet!!!
Good luck!!! I hope you feel more 'up' soon!! (((((Hugs)))))

Oh hunni. I am so very sorry. *hugs* like zsa said, try not to let school make you or break you, I did that about two years ago, and it almost fucking broke me. Hang in there hun, if you need to talk, I am here for you.

pretty much going through the same thing. the pressure. school or fail.

But you know what?

Do not worry about the "if I fail" because that's what drives you into this.

Just take it one day at a time. When you constantly worry about failing in the future, you do not do all you can do in the present.

I know I may be hypocritical for saying this, since I can be the same way, but I've also gotten myself out of it.

It's easier said than done, but you need to focus on the now, because the future is unknown, and you need to stop trying to predict it failing.
:):)hugs:):)

Everything is hard because you have a major mental illness. DON'T FORGET THAT and cut yourself some slack. Reduce your course load. You don't need to graduate at the same time as everyone else. You just need to graduate. I, myself was on the 8 year plan. I took off two years for depression and only one year of credit was accepted from the college I had transferred from. But I did it. I got my degree. Without even knowing I was bp1, ADHD and GAD. This suicidal ideation comes from stress. Be KIND TO YOURSELF and do only what you can do at the moment. You'll feel much better.

I can TOTALLY relate. I'm a full time student, single mom, and I work. There are somedays that I dread getting out of bed. But...I already got my BA...I made it! So I can do this again.

Some suggestions - inform your teachers/profs about your situation. And then, get the homework assignments for a few days and work at your OWN PACE (I mean, make sure you get it done on time, but if you have the flexibility to do some of that on your own terms, that might help immesnely).

Do not be afraid to take a "mental health day" and stay home for a day. But don't waste that day - do something for yourself. Long walk, make a fabulous meal, have coffee with someone you haven't seen in awhile. These are all types of things that help me to keep fighting through it.

I also enjoy counting down the weeks. Heck, I'm a quarter way through the semester so far! If I can do it, YOU can do it!

I have many, many studying tips if you ever need some help. If you ever need to vent about school, I'm here for ya!

Also...try asking your pdoc for some adavant or something to help with the anxiety. I don't know if that'll help you, but it has made a huge difference in my life. It allows me to at least sleep well without waking up feeling groggy.

Sorry I'm rambling.

Good luck!

Hi X, i really cant give you any advice, but the advice given here i think is bang on.
Im here for you.
HUGS
dee