I've been exactly where you are. I had daily serious suicidal ideation for several years. And I will be frank, I did make a 100% serious attempt on my life exactly 2 years ago. I so nearly succeeded - I was in a coma for 5 days with many medical interventions to save my life. I am being so brutally honest with you because I don't think that making emotional calls for you not to take the act would be of any use to you in your mindstate. You need to hear the REAL truth.

I was a very sick woman when I made that decision and the act itself and I don't feel guilt that I did the act itself, my illnesses and circumstances (long-term mis-prescription by psychiatrists) had gotten me that sick.

But here's the thing, I never could have believed the mess I created for people close to me as a result of what I did. And of course, it would have been much worse if I had succeeded in the act and died.

Since that time, being that I did survive, you can imagine it has been a tough road to say the least. But because I have continued to seek out the BEST of psychiatric and psychological care, things are changing for me. I have had to advocate for myself long and hard within the mental health profession to get the best of care. And just as we always are, I have continued to be a guineau pig with medications until the right mix has been struck. But it is bearing out results.

I have struck a med mix, and continued strong psychotherapy, that is finally starting to see me get results and have hope for the future.

So, I would ask that you reconsider your thoughts about suicide due to the horrendous effects it would have on those close to you, whether or not the attempt was successful. And secondly, take it from me, there is REAL HOPE for change with doctors, psychologists and medication changes. I am as surprised as anyone about that, but it is true.

Hey bud. I've been exactly where you're sitting when it comes to considering suicide. I've also been a few steps further down the road with it. My initial attempt was where I felt totally worthless. I thought that my family would be much better off if I were to take the proverbial dirt nap. After making multiple serious attempts I learned that the impact my death would have on my family would be horrendous. There are support groups on here for family and friends of survivors of suicide. In other words, the people left behind can't deal with it,

One question to ask is if you could postpone doing anything. In other words, there's no real time sensitivity to doing it now vs later. Why not wait until daylight when things may look different. If you feel like you have a compulsion to do something now, this very minute or hour, please call 911 so that they can get you treated. They'll definately get you in a position where the exhaustion and the pain will be reduced. In addition you'll get some additional coping resources. Situations are like the weather. If you don't like them . . . . just weight a bit: they're going to change. Another reason to postpone it is because the paperwork is horrendous whenever an attempt or a suicide is made. The beauty of your situation is that you can choose how and when anything happens and you're on no deadline. You can take as much time as you need to evaluate but I'd suggest doing this in a hospital setting if possible.

Email me if you want to discuss further. There are other people here to which I could refer you for some additional feedback. Until then, take a step back, some deep breaths and think about whether you could get to a hospital Taks care.

My son said the very same words, practically verbatim, to me several months before he did take his own life. I took him seriously, and told him, it doesn't have to be that way. I still feel, it didn't have to be that way.

Do you have borderline? Just curious. Yes, well aware people with bp also get suicidal ideation etc

dont think like that just try to block it please !! i tried to die and i thought the same. I do get thoughts like that stil but i block them as much as I can, i saw the effects it had on my fam it was terrible...seek help sweetheart life can be better dont take ur own life!!! hugs!

There are these lists you can read that might help, will fetch one for you later.

You're the mistress of your own destiny- it is most certainly NOT inevitable that you'll this world by your own hands...that's your mood talking, y'know..pessimism & all that.

Sounds like your having some type of episode, perhaps? Is your doctor aware that you have this suicidal ideation at the moment? Maybe they can make you feel better. I hope so x

leave this world, that should read..am in no fit state for typing lol

At 25 I attempted suicide. A spiritualist minister told me then, you have a life ahead of you. I am 56 now. I' ve had a great life in many ways. It's hard at your age to accept the ups and downs, but now I still get depressed, but I know it will not last.

Try to change your circumstances--if you can start something new, even if it seems like a wrenching change and you feel unsure, it will give you a different perspective. I'm not saying it's easy, but it's worth it.

We care about you here.

I'VE BEEN THERE SWEETIE, JUST RECENTLY TA BE EXACT..I DON'T KNOW IF YOUR ON ANY MEDS, IF YOUR NOT MAY BE IT'S TIME TA THINK ABOUT IT. I CAN TELL YOU THEY TRULY HELP..IF YOU ARE ON THEM MAYBE YA NEED AN AJUSTMENT..
BELIEVE ME, THE MEDS HELPED ME SO MUCH..ONLY BEEN ON THEM ABOUT 6 MONTHS AFTER GOING WITHOUT THEM FOR 10 YEARS..SO PLEASE TRY, YOUR WAY TOO YOUNG TA TAKE YOUR LIFE..I'M SURE YA HAVE A LOT OF PEOPLE THAT CARE ABOUT YA & LOVE YA...

I'm sorry you are feeling like this. As everyone else has said, suicide is definitely not the way to go- if for no other reason that most attempts are not successful, and instead you hurt yourself. For example, I am mostly deaf in one ear because of an attempt- others have to live with a lot more serious damage.

How long have you been feeling this way. Have you told your pdoc about these feelings? You should not feel ashamed of these feelings, but they are a hint to get help right away.

I have been there twice.The most recent was 7 months ago.It is hard but think of all the people that you would be hurting.Trust me its not worht it.Please reconsider before doing something that you can not change.It will be well worth it.

Not sure if I should write but I feel like I need too I am 49 I was a mother of a beautiful young man he took his life and now I am in that head space ,I have been to hospital but they wont take me they say its a grief issue .My family and I have not been the same since October 2008 and it isnt getting any easier .I was always scared for my son because he suffered deppression and did not really seek help til the last few months of his life .You say you have a feeling you will die when your young well my advice dear one is to go to a er and be admitted and seek the help .We dont know what death brings ,I hope and pray it brings peace but we dont know with the living there is always hope .I feel a bit better today because I dragged myself out of bed I have a appoinment in a few weeks at the mental health clinic to see if I can have something to help me ,I dont want to die I just want to feel normal again like I did befor my son died .Please ask yourself the ones you love how would they be affected ,I can tell you it has lasting long term affects and there devastating .I know suicide isnt selfish because I know the pain my son was in he was'nt himself ,I wish I could of done more .Hang in there avocate for yourself for help if you cant find a family member or friend and seek that help .I am close to the edge now myself the only thing that keeps m,e here is my family but I also know that is on borrowed time I dont want to DIE I just want to get better so I can live a productive life again .Reach out to people here ,I read people posts and there supportive acually helped me takecare young one listen to someone thats been through it on the other end .

I tried to get to this link, and ended up at your profile, so i posted there, and tried to encourage you to get help and this is not the answer. We all have to die sometime, but sooner is not better than later. Things can and will get better, but you have to be proactive and make some positive steps to get out of this "pit" For me, as I mentioned, the only answer has been God. I was thinking about this all evening, because I have been in a terrible, dysphoric mood, and I think a lot of it has to do with relationships - failed ones, lack of love, lack of self esteem, and purpose for living. If you are missing any or all those things, then you need to make some radical changes, which can only come with the right help from a professional. it is not easy, and hope can be hard to find, but I can never regret that my suicide attempts failed. I will pray for you, to find the help that you need. I used to always think I would die young, and I am 56 now. It has been worthwhile, and I would really like a few more years to finish some of the things I have started, (like my Master's degree), travel, learn some languages, play more music, and serve God. Why not look at what you can do to make life better, instead of ways to end it?

i had to write to you.My name is vader and I am the founder of the Siblling Loss Group.It hasnt been successful but I want to tell you this.On 5/22/2009,my boyfriend committed suicide.I found Brads body on the grass at the house where we share in seattle and it has been a big trauma for me.Brad was dead when i found him.In fact,he died in my arms.Brad slit his wrists and i am finding out that Brad had all kinds of problems.He could have gotten help.Seattle has got low cost therapy.Some charge 40.00.He could have gotten to the clinic and for some reason chose to end his life and me,brads sisters and brothers are cleaning up his mess.He left no note.And he left me no explatanation and he left me at a time where i have beated mental illness.I take abiliify now and i feel wonderful.;It was the beginning of a new life for me.But Brad did not want to share this.But Brad had a drinking problem and for some reason...he chose to be this way.Brad was in 12 rehabs.How many rehabs did he have to go?How many support groups? If he had listened to the professionals and such..he would still be alive..but i have his name on a wall and it is for people who commit suicide and i visit and write in it everyday.I will never stop loving Brad..but at 62...i cant start my life over again.i have to move forward.I have and most.I have to go back to work and he was in a very depressed state of mind if he took his medication...he would feel better and be a much better person to me and our cats...you see during his last year..he treated me terrible.ANd I mean terrible.We were not getting along.His drinking and drugging were killing us and the cats...and he knew it.He liked to fight and call me names.But now I feel a bit better not to be called ugly or stupid.I can do anything I want now and we were together for 12 years.It wasnt like this for 5 years,,but he began to drink again and thats when it all hit the fan and I am sorry it ended that way..and anyone who is thinking of suicide should think of this....THE PAIN THAT US SURVIVORS HAVE AND THE PAIN THEY LEAVE BEHIND.PLEASE DO NOT DO IT.......VADER AND THE CATS..KRAMER AND LITTLE TOOEY.