it is hard, but you're so nice mush

take heart, don't let the things you dn't want define you,

you can make something of this , yes ?

while i can't feel your feelings and you wouldn't want me to, i empathize and say to go for sunshine and lollipops no matter how dark things start to seem.
i believe it can only elevate you and help you reach a higher plane in the long run- and you've been at it too long to give up at this point-right ?

Big hugs (((mush)))
I understand just what u mean. It will get better. Don't let this dark cloud trick ur mind. Do ur best to look beyond this feeling to brighter days. I know thts so easy to say but I'm sending ya love and strength all the way across the big water lol.

I get lonely.. its worse Acer I've been going for a while too. Seems easier when I isolate chronically to not care if im alone. Feel better sweet pea.. your next adventure is right around the corner. Be safe tho. We have a tendency to party like nobody else.

*after

The other day I cried with euphoria
Now I'm crying with desperate sadness and all I know is that's its
Cruel and painful

I know of that all too well and all I can say is im sorry. It does eventually pass for another scene. Yay! Its forever changing. I couldn't imagine going from depressed to baseline and back again.. give me the high please...xo

My problem is I feel good when I go shopping but as soon as I get home I revert to my depression. About five years ago my husband was bringing in $5000 a month and we had no bills or rent. Well I got use to a certain lifestyle spending as much as I wanted. We bought a house and ran up bills now I cant do those things and it depressed the hell out of me.

It's not about money
It's about being scared that I can't be the person I could be because my head is torturous

I wish I could take your euphoria and mix it with your sadness and despair and keep you on a more or less even keel!!!!

Just a little dips and rises and only as life dictates!!!

((((((((((Hugs))))))))))

Thanks guys