Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
Yesterday was a horrible day for me, with the mistakes made by a dr that never faxed over the life- subtancing meds paper he said he did, to my laptop finally dieing. I felt like such a burden, I was seriously looking at the pills I am returning today, ( because I need the money for bills and food) just thinking I should down them all and be done with it.
Well, today- I feel better, its a great day again. I got a plan to fix this error with the insurance that involves a trip to staples after work to fax over the paper work, they need.
And After 1200.00 of more debt and being approved for a credit line with dell, I got a new computer with all the software I need for my school on it.
33 dollars a month. Going to pay it off when my refund comes with paying off my bonton card and half of my capital one. then the rest goes toward a new house for my mother in law. We live with her, so when we move I give her the down payment money and then pay 400 a month. This time, I am not giving her all the security money because I need to open a saving and pay all that shit. After paying that, hoping I can put a couple Hundred in a savings. Plus Talon is starting school for gaming design, monday- so there is another bill for ya beside the usually. Writing all this is giving me aniexty, I was writing it so I could get my plan on what I am doing down for myself, really.
Sigh, I just feel like I am a burden to my family for needing medication to be okay. I am so weak to need this. Wish I could change it myself.
Well, today- I feel better, its a great day again. I got a plan to fix this error with the insurance that involves a trip to staples after work to fax over the paper work, they need.
And After 1200.00 of more debt and being approved for a credit line with dell, I got a new computer with all the software I need for my school on it.
33 dollars a month. Going to pay it off when my refund comes with paying off my bonton card and half of my capital one. then the rest goes toward a new house for my mother in law. We live with her, so when we move I give her the down payment money and then pay 400 a month. This time, I am not giving her all the security money because I need to open a saving and pay all that shit. After paying that, hoping I can put a couple Hundred in a savings. Plus Talon is starting school for gaming design, monday- so there is another bill for ya beside the usually. Writing all this is giving me aniexty, I was writing it so I could get my plan on what I am doing down for myself, really.
Sigh, I just feel like I am a burden to my family for needing medication to be okay. I am so weak to need this. Wish I could change it myself.
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Here is my new brother, copper :) He's so tiny! Moo and Tuck were ok with him on first meeting. Rocket due to his severe aggression will never meet Cooper.
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If you were a diabetic , would you consider yourself weak ?
NOPE.....our bipolar is just sneakier , it is a biochemical, organic disorder , that manifests in psycological problems....that does not make it any less severe or real.
Hang in there, things will level out , once you get your meds going in the right direction
Good luck
glad you didn't take the pills. good for you. how long will you have to be med-free though? are you quitting things cold turkey?
You aren't a burden for needing meds.. would you think anyone else in your family was a burden if they needed medication to stay healthy.. be good to you sweetie.. you're worth it...x
100mg of topamax now and 255 mg of Lamictal. Feeling Dizzy, I had a headache but it went away. Not sure when I should take them. I am thinking the one at night, the L one. And the Topamax twice a day at morning and night. I don't want to be taking them at work.
Oh, My old co-worker, that left my old job because of her bipolar ( like me) and the stress and bs of the management about it, works as a manager at macy's Lol. I got so much to tell her. Its so funny. I know so much about her and her issues, she is really someone I can talk to since she told me all her secret issue things that I never told anyone about. I told her some things too, that remain between us. Hoping to build another nutter friendship there, then I will have 3 people with bi-polar that will understand me. :D
And I agree with dancing - if you were a diabetic and needed medication - that would not be a weakness.
If someone is telling you that you are weak because you need meds - please don't listen - because they don't now what they're talking about.