Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
I can't remember if I took my pill. It's lamictol so I don't want to take it twice but I can't remember. This happens every night.
I'm pretty sure I took it but I can't remember. Honestly I need a structured environment and I lack the skills to give myself one on my own. I really wonder if I don't need some one to help me take care of myself. I live alone and totally dysfunctional.
I don't beat myself up cause I know I can always count on my mom to do it for me. She just got done lecturing me today on all the things I do wrong in my life and whats wrong with me and my attitude. If only she knew that I was seeing things like the grim reaper. I would never tell her because I don't think she'd believe me. But honestly I'm tired of being told I'm a burden, I know I am a burden thats why I opted to live alone. Hell no ones even helped me pay for anything since I don't even know when so I don't know why every ones ready to bitch when I ask for help! Funny I never even asked for help. But have to keep my mom informed and she's gonna find out eventually any way when I end up homeless which looks like it could happen real soon.
Yeah I'm starting to get my emotions back. Funny how I wasn't feeling anything now I feel like shit naturally. But it's good to know I'm still human after all. I could really rant on for ever about all things bothering me now that I have my emotions back, but that would probably turn in a book.
I'm broke right now so I can't afford one of those weekly pill organizer things but as soon as I get some money it's on my long list of things I need. And I did actually clean my house today all though the grim reaper threatened me into it. Long story. But yeah hopefully things will get better soon.
I'm pretty sure I took it but I can't remember. Honestly I need a structured environment and I lack the skills to give myself one on my own. I really wonder if I don't need some one to help me take care of myself. I live alone and totally dysfunctional.
I don't beat myself up cause I know I can always count on my mom to do it for me. She just got done lecturing me today on all the things I do wrong in my life and whats wrong with me and my attitude. If only she knew that I was seeing things like the grim reaper. I would never tell her because I don't think she'd believe me. But honestly I'm tired of being told I'm a burden, I know I am a burden thats why I opted to live alone. Hell no ones even helped me pay for anything since I don't even know when so I don't know why every ones ready to bitch when I ask for help! Funny I never even asked for help. But have to keep my mom informed and she's gonna find out eventually any way when I end up homeless which looks like it could happen real soon.
Yeah I'm starting to get my emotions back. Funny how I wasn't feeling anything now I feel like shit naturally. But it's good to know I'm still human after all. I could really rant on for ever about all things bothering me now that I have my emotions back, but that would probably turn in a book.
I'm broke right now so I can't afford one of those weekly pill organizer things but as soon as I get some money it's on my long list of things I need. And I did actually clean my house today all though the grim reaper threatened me into it. Long story. But yeah hopefully things will get better soon.
some structure ( schedule helped)....plus I always turn the bottle upside down after I have taken it so I will know....try that. It really helps me.
I'm in dire straights right now, I have no income and no health insurance. The only thing I still have is section 8 housing and if eventually if I don't take care of everything else I wont even have that.
And she knows I recently tried to get admitted to a hospital what does that tell you about my mental health its not good. But don't be too hard on her, she's been pretty understanding and supportive and she's the only one who doesn't demonize me for all my past failures. But I think she just kind of jumped the gun today because I told her I was starting to feel motivated again. And I am pretty understand of her she has her own mental issues going on I just get tired too. Tired of being reminded how much of a burden I am on every one. I know she's stressed to the max, and she's never been able to handle stress. So my problems are stressing her out too.
I know families are suppose to be supportive but mine is far from perfect and a little dysfunctional. And most of them have no understanding of mental illness and about half of them are alcoholics. I've pretty much been told by some of my family members that there's nothing wrong with me the doctors made it up to make money by prescribing pills. There's no cure for bi polar and unfortunately there's no cure for idiocy either. But they are still my family and I do love them so I have to deal with them the best I can. I'm as frustrated with them as they are with me.
And I did want to say thank you to every one. There were some pretty good suggestion here. I'm gonna try some of them.