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Fear

Christopher22
Christopher22
I am overwhelmed with fear, of everything and nothing. It's feels like depression taken to the next level. Maybe it's really just an anxiety attack which I am prone to. I know I talk myself into it why can't I talk myself out of it. Afraid that I'm dying, afraid that my mother is dying (cancer) I see her depression but I'm powerless to help her. I took 2mg of atavan and it should put me out but it's not helping. Does anyone else go through this, it would so help to know I'm not alone.
penny59
penny59
yes i have often gone through this.. try to distract yourself with something soothing.. music maybe ..i also had it really bad while i was on abilify..that drug really screwed with my head i thought that i was going to be homeless and my husband was going to die and also my son..it was terrible...maybe you need a med tweek. you are not alone.. hugs .
deleted_user
deleted_user
Oh, I've definitely gone through this. Go through it so often. I take Abilify and Klonopin for it. I try to work through it with my tdoc and self-talk. Have you tried the typical breathing exercises and progressive muscle relaxation? Stuff like that.
Christopher22
Christopher22
I did take cbt classes and they help but at some point things just start to break down.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Definitely understand. Do you think extra meds (med tweak) might be in order to help get you through this rough patch? You have a lot going on. Maybe talk to your pdoc?
Cammiecat
Cammiecat
I always tell people to breathe. It is a great tool to use. Now if I can only remember to use it myself.
dancingd
dancingd
I Posted a Topic,a long time ago about fear.
Do a search for THE FEAR MANTRA....I typed up this mantra and had it all over my house...I memorized it...it helped
deleted_user
deleted_user
Yes I relate, for me it's manifesting as Night Terrors right now. And my fear that follows on from that is that it's never going to end, there won't be any resolution to it, I won't be able to function enough to improve my life and move forward. And it makes me suicidal as I've been with all this for so long, have done everything I'm told, am very proactive in therapy, 100% meds compliant, nearly 12 years sober in AA, have immersed myself in a spiritual journey, try to help others. I mean what else am I supposed to do?? There IS nothing else to do. I am on the top of all the high octane psych meds I am on so there no possibility for movement there. Oh Shiiiiiiiit.
MaineGirl011108
MaineGirl011108
During depressions, I experience the same generalized fear of everything that could possibly go wrong.

How will I cope when my husband dies before me? Will I be arrested for the bad checks I wrote in Texas in 2002. (Despite the fact that I now live in Maine and they would probably never arrest me from so far away for a few hot checks! ;-) Since my 11 year old daughter just severed all ties w/ me, will her father destroy her spirit now that he's left to his own devices? The fear and worry goes on and on . . . .

The only reason I'm still alive is that I have forced myself to remember, while in these depressions, that fear and worry/panic are symptoms of my disorder. It will pass, for me it takes approx. 3 months to cycle from depression back to mania or hypomania. I am blessed w/ very regular, predictable mood swings. Rather than my brain chemistry screwing up randomly.